Re: Unravelling.
- From: nigel <useweb@xxxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Fri, 31 Jul 2009 16:35:22 +0100
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Maelstrom21 wrote:
I feel like I've fallen apart over this last 10 days or so. My anxiety
has been building for a while. I haven't had a continuous run of feeling
this completely desperate for a while.
Have you told your GP how you feel?
My scalp psoriasis has progressively gotten worse over the last few
months, becoming more widespread and slower to respond to treatments. It
never goes away anyhow.
My hair is so thin and straggly now I think I'm at the point of having to
near enough shave it off. Obviously this will reveal more of my greasy,
red and scabby head.
I haven't really looked in the mirror in full daylight for 3 years.
Usually, I keep my thick curtains closed in the mornings and carefully
control the light. Just enough to see by.
I think I'm gonna have to look again tonight or maybe tomorrow morning.
For the first time in 3 years I'll actually take a proper look at
myself. The last time I did it I was off work for 3 days in utter
despair and self-revulsion.
You're holding down a job, that's not something to be dismissed lightly.
I haven't slept much for the last 3 nights, I doubt I will tonight unless
it's drug or booze induced. I feel physically sick with anxiety. I just
want to look normal. Not like a freak or a leper. I just want to be ok.
The drugs and/or booze are probably making things worse. I'd try to kick
them if I were you.
(((Maelstrom)))
Hang in there. Things got worse, they could get better.
Evil Nigel
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