Re: My anxious head
- From: csaenemy <csaenemy@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Tue, 04 Nov 2008 16:58:43 -0600
maelstrom21@xxxxxxxxxxx wrote in news:6aa642a5-c604-408e-9c94-b44f0c4f0be9
I find it difficult enough coping with fairly low-level depression and
anxiety so I really hate it when, like today, things are more acute.
I have a bit of the skin complaint psoriasis, fairly mild as psoriasis
goes but one of the areas it tends to crop up on is the scalp. It's
been flaring up there for the past week or two and not only has it
been driving me nuts with the itching but it's been causing me a lot
When my hair was thick, I didn't worry about the scalp psoriasis too
much - it only meant a bit of dandruff would be visible to people.
Now that my hair is much thinner and receeded I worry about people
being able to see the red, scabby patches that are the psoriasis
plaques themselves. Worse still, my job involves contact with a lot
of people. I dont think I can cope with comments, questions and
stares about the state of my head on times when I get such a flare up
as I have recently. I worry about when exactly that time will come
and could it be here already? Perhaps people have noticed but are too
polite or unsure to say anything?
Maybe I will have to change my job to something that involves dealing
with less people. But I really like my job. There's a good bunch of
people there and it's a really understanding organisation with respect
to sick leave etc. It is so demoralising to think I may have to quit
for no other reason than the way that I look. That I will, in effect,
be too ugly to work there. I don't want to go to a job where I only
see a handful of people as I like the interaction (mostly anyway) with
large numbers of people. But I dont see how I could ever be strong
enough to just carry on if the psoriasis is so bad on my scalp.
Whatever strength people with visible 'differences' have to do these
things...I just don't have.
The company and my co-workers are understanding about when I have the
odd day off work like today. But what will I do long term? I just
don't know :(
I too suffer with psoriasis and have done for thirty years or more. I have
been under a lot of stress lately which has resulted in red patches on my
forehead and nose and in the area where facial hair grows. I noticed it
particularly today in the mirror in a supermarket toilet, I think the neon
lights make it appear worse.
No-one at work commented on it. Today I noticed someone else at work with a
similar problem, funny thing is I'd never noticed before today. I guess a
lot of people don't notice the red patches on my face, but maybe they would
if they were similarly afflicted.
Don?t worry about avoiding temptation as you grow older, it will avoid you.
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