Re: Brain cancer

of mice and monkfish wrote:
I've had a headache all day that reminds me very much of the sort of
headache i used to get regularly when i first got seriously brain sick
as a teenager.

I can't remember the exact order they came in, but some of the reasons
i put forward back then to explain these headaches varied from cosmic
rays blocking the passage of neurochemical transmitters at synapses,
through to government spy satellites in a geosynchronous orbit with my
head deliberately disrupting my thinking with energy beams (since they
had identified me as a dangerous individual who had to be
neutralized), to a malignant brain tumour eating away at my cereberal
cortex (around this time i also used to get terrible stomach aches,
which seemed to me to be stomach cancer resulting from the brain
cancer mestastasing).

(Later on at uni, when i was trying to concentrate but couldn't
because my brain was completely fried, the government spy satellite
theory was modified slightly - it was the tv aerial on the house over
the road that agents were using to fire thought-disrupting energy
beams directly into my brain. And the fact that the aerial wasn't
aimed directly at me - but was pointing down the road along with all
the others - /proved/ beyond all shadow of doubt that it was the
aerial, since there is no way the agents would be so blatant about it,
instead they would have made their device so it fires its beams at an
angle. That's just common sense. At other times, i would think that,
since the aerials were all pointing down the road to the right, and
that i, in turn, was to the right of all those up the road from me,
one of these aerials was bound to be pointing directly at my head, and
it was that one that was zapping me. It was also around that time
that i begun to be fascinated by electricity pylons, telephone cables
and so forth.)

Anyway, this is very much that sort of headache. I don't know, maybe
i am losing it again. That would explain a lot. But i don't think i
am - and for that i'm truly grateful.

I'm not sure why i'm telling you all this. Maybe i just feel like
sharing - other people have stories about their 18th birthday party,
the holiday they went on to crete that time with their girlfriend,
failing their driving test five times before finally passing, stuff
like that. For me, though, the sort of anecdotes i discuss above are
the true history of my life. The rest is just meaningless bollocks.

Maybe i'm just reminding myself how close i still am to all that chaos
and craziness, how close it is beneath the surface. Because that's
who i really am.

Or maybe i'm tired and i have a headache and my judgment is impaired
and i shouldn't post any of this at all.

Oh well . . .


monkfish

help me i think i'm being fried by them at the moment,
although i think it's the neighbours tv coupled with the sense of living in concrete cardboard
.

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