Re: Bowels



You keep an archive in your bowels?

fergus wrote:
As I continue to look back at old archives in order to try to see what
is worth keeping and what is best discarded I'm amazed at just how
much stuff I used to write to this group and to the people who used to
be on it.

A whole list of people who I wrote to 7 or 8 years ago and who have
disappeared and a lot of whom I just have hazy memories of.

Then there are people who still post here but who I now have very
little interaction with and I was surprised to find just how much
interaction I'd had with them in the past. I wonder what happened. I
guess we all change and drift apart. At least that's the optimistic
interpretation - the temptation is to think there was never anything
beyond the superficial in the first place and I was just kidding
myself. One day I'll get the hang of this friendship lark.

Take trolls as an example, I'm here sat at my XP laptop, underpaid and idle and just told I could have had a lay-in and there was no need to have faced the other commuters, "10.30am would've been fine", sigh.....
Logon and find a certain individual is socked-up and shes causing greef in other froops, MY groops!......

Here is her first ever post to this groop (As Ysabell):
http://tinyurl.com/ypab2u
She started as she intended to continue. And within months she had alienated most with her BS and abuse(As Black Aliss):
http://tinyurl.com/28lmag
But she was a larf huh, then as now she would be socked up (magrat) elsewhere, back then she claimed to be a programmer in some gruuds, a publisher in others, or she was marrying her B/F and adopting his kids.
And all the different illnessess she has had (all self diagnosed), what a giggle with her claims of ME, and when Rolly self-diagnosed himself with Aspergers, she decided she had it as well!
And all the computers she has told us she has owned, her knowledge (and abuse) in tech forums, all coupled with her "woe-is-me" routines.
And nothing has changed, right upto this very morning it continues...

You write of "the temptation is to think there was never anything
beyond the superficial", but all friendships, most relationship are superficial, very few relationships in all of our lives will ever be profound. It's just not the loonies posting to usenet, thats what real life is all about - bullshit, me first, fickle. Thats the way it is.

>
I also see a picture of the sorts of ways I related to people,
including the unhelpful and distorted perceptions which I had - and
scarily probably still have. Still working on that one.


"unhelpful and distorted perceptions"? Of whom, or of what? Are you sure you weren't just being cautious, being self-protective - nothing wrong in doing that.


And what happened to the idea of upsd meets? I presume the February
one never happened. Nobody has ever said otherwise, anyway. It's
amazing how many meets there were in the past as the emails, posts and
photos testify. It's a shame those have petered out.

The meets didn't produce anything longstanding, everyone didn't like themsleves so nobody liked anyone else, coupled with the fact people would post unfettered comments to this groop and the chatroom, and text on a screen in an archive cannot be undone. Think back, over the years and previous meets, which two names were singled out as the subject of posts and emails of the ilk: "I'm not going if those two will be there".

I think it's time for me to take a fresh view of where I am and where
I'm going. Even if that's a bit like standing half way up a mountain
and wondering if I've taken so many wrong turnings that the only way
forward involves some strenuous and precarious climbing.

Happy Easter and Happy Purim to you all.
--

Fergus

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