Re: Positive post :o)

Rowland McDonnell wrote:
Mandy <mandy2uk@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:

real-address-in-sig@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Rowland McDonnell) wrote:

Mandy <mandy2uk@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:

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I guess all I'm trying to say is please don't give up? Yes, life can
be incredibly hard but if you keep on fighting to stay alive and do
everything in your power to get both medical and friends support and
you lean on those bods when you need to then you can come out the
other side a stronger person!
I've done that, lost all my friends, and lost all access to medical
support.

Don't you have a GP?

Allegedly in theory, but in practice the nominated chap refuses to
permit me any access to treatment and denies any responsibility for my
care. The PCT backs up his actions and refuses to engage in any kind of
discussion with either me or my wife.

If you have, go and see them

I cannot enter medical premises. I've suffered too much abuse in them
and any such attempt would (and has) caused me to suffer a disabling
panic attack. And any time I get a panic attack in the presence of NHS
staff, they subject me to humilating abuse. So I can't enter medical
premises.

and if you don't, go to your local hospital and ask them to help you?

I've tried that. The one time I was told something other than `Go away
we will not help you', they locked me up (for no reason I've ever been
able to work out beyond punishing me for asking for help), and when I
asked to be let go, they jumped on me, injected me with vile drugs
against my will (punishing me for asking to be let go, you see - the
bastards took away my mind), and - well, I'm certainly never ever *EVER*
going to let another psychiatric nurse get anywhere near me or go
anywhere near a hospital ever again asking for help with a mental health
problem.

What was done to me was deliberate terrorisation. Never again will I
trust a doctor or nurse - not one inch.

I spent 47 hours locked up. I was subjected to constant terrorisation
by the nurses. I was permitted only one meal. I was released early -
the original sentence of imprisonment was for 72 hours - after I'd asked
to see a doctor. It took them more than 24 hours to get me a doctor,
who let me go as soon as I explained that I wanted to go home.

I've been unable to get any explanation for why I was locked up, or why
that doctor was willing to let me go when I'd been locked up for no
apparent reason.

They can't cut you off completely surely!

They have done. I've been in this position for years.

[snip]

Rowland.


I'll engage with the professionals at my mh centre but as for being able to fully trust them... pass.

Years of indifference and dismissiveness from those who could have helped fanned the flames from a traumatic first hospitalisation.

If i could put a bullet through the head of the *** pdoc(presuming the *** is still alive)'who responded to my first acute crisis as a first time patient by telling me i was 'an awkward and troublesome teenager and get away without it i would.

That would be after i had tortured the sadistic fucker so i could say 'Now you know what it feels like'.

Come to think of it a good number of mh professionals i have had the displeasure to meet would deserve such treatment.

The current lot are better in comparison especially the OT staff at my local resource centre but i still keep a fair amount to myself for fear of it being dismissed/trivialised.




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