Re: If you're feeling bad atm please read this :o)

On Sep 10, 11:56 am, Mandy <mandy...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
real-address-in-...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Rowland McDonnell) wrote innews:1i4740l.oxdjx965us1dN%real-address-in-sig@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:



Mandy <mandy...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:

real-address-in-...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Rowland McDonnell) wrote:

Mandy <mandy...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:

real-address-in-...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Rowland McDonnell) wrote:

Mandy <mandy...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:

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All I'm trying to say is don't give up hope just yet... give it
time and don't be afraid to speak up when you're feeling bad
'cos talking about it with people who understand really can
help!

Well, I cracked up about a decade ago and things have just got
steadily worse. What I find is that in time, things get worse
and > the situation becomes more and more hopeless.

Talk to your GP and ask him to put you on/increase/change ADs?

I have no access to a GP, nor any means of getting such access. My
PCT has barred me from accessing my GP (although I officially have
a GP). They refuse to explain why they have done this and refuse to
discuss anythign to do with me accessing the health care I need.
My MP has refused to get involved, and so have all the solicitors
I've contacted. Ditto advocacy organisations.

Surely they can't do that can they?

They can do what the hell they like, so it seems.

Can you talk to your MP about it?

Oh, for ***'s sake Amanda, learn to read, do! He's already said (and
I quote)

"My MP has refused to get involved, and so have all the solicitors
I've contacted. Ditto advocacy organisations."

If they can then surely someone can
tell you where you can go to get medical treatment?

Yes, I am required to go to my GP. Except that I'm not capable of
doing so, and I'm banned from the premises (no reason given) and I'm
banned from contacting my GP (no reason given).

Can you change your GP or is the one you can't see the only one in your
area?

And how's he supposed to do that, brainiac, when he's already told you
that he's been denied any access to NHS services for no reason
whatsoever? This is something else he's told you very explicitly. You
seem to have an inability to comprehend what's written in front of you
in black and white.


As far as I am aware, I have never behaved in an untoward fashion
in the
presence of any NHS staff or in an NHS establishment: why I have
been banned, I cannot imagine.

Can you go to your local hospital and talk to someone there about
what your options are?

You think I'm willing to enter a hospital without some sort of
protection? You've got to be kidding. But I've tried it in the past
- what they say is `See your GP' and won't discuss any problems like
the fact that it's not possible for me to see my GP.

Could you go to your local A&E and explain the situation to them... it's
not right that you're left with no medical bods! :o(

And where do you find A&E depts, you stupid bint? That's right - in
*HOSPITALS*!!



There is no hope. Hope is a killer. My only hope is to abandon
all hope - if that makes sense. I can live if I accept that
every day is meaningless, empty, misery with no point and no
reason with nothing to do and no purpose in life. I can live
like that. That's all I have.

How about doing something to give you something to look forward to
each day?

Eh? I've no idea what you could be thinking of. *DO* something?
How? Have you no idea just how incapable I am?

You're not incapable, you're ill! :o)

Eh? I'm incapable /because/ I'm ill.

Have you thought about getting alternative treatments like hypnotherapy
and things like that? Sorry if I've already asked and you've already
answered but I've got a terrible memory! :o(

And what does that have to do with the price of haddock? Having a
terrible memory is no excuse for not reading - and comprehending -
what's down in front of you in black and white - even in the post
you're replying to, for crying out loud!

Now, I wouldn't like to speculate on their financial situation, but
he's already explained (at very great length, I might add) why he
cannot access *ANYTHING* on the NHS, which only leaves private
treatment - and here you are assuming he can afford it! Who are you to
make such an assumption?!



In a different message to you I suggested studying but how about
learning to play a musical instrument or supporting your local
sports team or something like that?

I fail to see how supporting a sports team could do anything at all
for me. What does it mean? Give them money? I've no interest in
spectator sport, I don't have a telly, and I can't get out very
much. As for learning to play a musical instrument: how could that
do anything but make me even more inclined to slit my wrists even
if I were able to do something like that, which I'm not. I'd need
lessons and that'd be impossible.

How about making a website then? There are loads of books on Amazon
that will tell you how to do it :o)

As I've tried to explain, I cannot do so for all sorts of reasons.
Nor do I think I'll find any useful books. There seems to have been
no decent technical documentation published in the last two decades.
Books on computer stuff - /modern/ such books - are almost
impenetrable to me. I'm quite happy with old-fashioned formal
technical manuals, but I can't get anywhere with the modern stuff.
All of it's written and structured far too badly for me to make
coherent sense out of it. `Applescript for Dummies' is the single
most annoying technical book I've ever wasted my money on, for
example. Utterly useless for learning anything as far as I'm
concerned.

I've got no idea what any of these are like, but how about this pagehttp://www.amazon.co.uk/Mac-OS-Missing-Manual-
Tiger/sim/0596009410/2/ref=pd_sexpl_s_b/203-6082089-6923107?ie=UTF8
&pf=book - is there anything on there that might help?


Ah yes, that piece of garbage - the only use it serves is to make the
author's bank balance swell, it certainly doesn't serve any useful
purpose other than that - it certainly doesn't teach you anything
about the inner machinations of OS X. No, I take that back, I suppose
if all copies were rounded up and burnt, they could be used to provide
power to some 3rd-World villages somewhere. Now, I cannot recall what
he has on the shelves in his computer room (it's a while since I
looked) but he's very well read and he's (probably, if not almost
certainly) read most of those books on that page, or read about them.



No, if I were going to produce a Web site, I'd look at on-line sources
and try to learn a bit more HTML, then I'd get on and write it.
<shrug>

You could try Bravenet... they've got all sorts of add-on things and you
can build your own site as you go as well as learning html?


Why the *** would he want to do something as stupid as that?! The
free service plagues visitors with pop-ups, pop-overs, pop-unders and
all manner of other 'goodies', not to mention the fact that the code
used by their wizards is inevitably so bloated that you don't have
much change from the 50MB they give you after you've done the
homepage.

No, the only way, IMNSHO, to design anything for the Web is to learn
HTML and code it by hand - that way, you know exactly what you're
getting.


But I am not capable of producing a worthwhile Website at the moment.
Nor is there anything I'd be interested in putting up on a Website
aside from some information about motorcycle maintenance - the bits
I've picked up that don't seem to be in the books. But don't suggest
that I do it because I've already tried and failed in utter, hopeless,
suicidal despair.

Okey dokes! :o)


So why have you just done so...? <puzzled>



Every time I've attempted something like that and failed, it's driven
me deeper down into the pit of despair. So for the sake of
maintaining what's left of my mental health, I've stopped making such
attempts - and that is because they have proven harmful to me, okay?
So please stop suggesting that I do something like that. I've tried,
and it's done me nothing but harm.

I'm sorry that things like that have done nothing but harm you :o(


So, again, I ask, why have you just suggested what he's told you not
to? Is your memory really so appallingly bad that it cannot contain
information for more than 5 seconds - you're replying to him by
suggesting the very thing he's told told you not to! Can't you sense
my anger and frustration here...? <rolls eyes in disbelief>


Talking about `it' with people who understand - well, that's not
possible. No-one understands my position, so it seems.
Certainly I just get attacked by a bunch of slavering hounds in
this newsgroup if I should open my mouth, don't I?

Rowland.

I'll listen if you mail me off the group! :o)

I thought you wanted no more email from me.

Huh? When did I say that?

Inference based on lack of reply.

I have replied! Send both emails to me again and I'll reply as soon as I
get them :o) For some reason Windoze Mail deletes anything you reply to
:o(


There's no such application as 'Windoze Mail' - you're talking about
Outhouse Excrement, I assume...? And I know what you're saying is a
lie because my parents use it (as much as I've tried to wean them off
it). Also, whether it does or not, is a moot point because it wouldn't
affect whether Rowland had received them or not. So, I suspect, that
the very statement 'I have replied' is also a lie.

I can't promise to have all the answers but I
*will* listen! :o)

I'd be happier if you understood as well as listened.

I'm trying to understand! Honest! :o)

Trying? Extremely. Understanding? Don't kid yourself. Your very reply
to his post shows that you've not understood a damned thing and, by
making the suggestions that you have, you're treating what he's told
you with contempt. Does that make you feel good, Amanda...? Well, does
it...?

Sarah


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