Re: My sexual experience(felt the need to talk about it after yesterday's nasty experience)

humble.life wrote:
Tim wrote:
bApart from Brenda i have only ever been to bed with one other person .A woman i knew in hospital before i met
Brenda.It was a one off thing and was a total humiliating experience.I was very shy and nervous and clueless about sex.She
was 8 years older and i learnt later bordering on nymphomaniac.
There was no foreplay or lets say a minute or so
before she opened her bedside cabinet and thrust a condom very mechanically in my hand.Just before she closed the cabinet i caught
a glimpse of what must have been a couple of dozen condoms.
I got completely flustered and was unable to 'raise a hope' as they
say.
Then she turned her back on me ,shrugged her shoulders and went to sleep.No compassion,no sympathy shown.

It took a year after meeting Brenda to successfully make love to her and then it was erratic due to moods and also because i would
often get very apprehensive. Long barren periods being punctuated by short periods of love making.

When Brenda had her stroke in 1990 it all stopped due to the stroke affecting her inability to have sex and enjoy it.


I wouldn't want to have sex with anyone else let alone a young girl. Brenda was very understanding about our erratic sex life although being human was driven to distraction on occasions.I couldn't trust someone else to be the same

Sex with someone else would be scary.I couldn't emotionally cope
with it.
I'm not sexless but i prefer deep and loyal romantic non sexual love and could never replace what i had with Brenda.

i blame the media and the fact that 90% of people don't recognise the paranioa they drive into people.

i think this has affected you.

i think you feel that if someone came and accused you of it that they'd think what they want to think and take you away and blame you.

only 3-5% of people in the criminal justice system are their because they are mad. the other 95% are normies like any other. but people, in their "ultimate wisdom" react like it must be the other way around.

psychiatrists are under pressure to create an umbrella term for everything politicians are scared of. it makes like simpler for them maybe. not for us.

life not like in the last paragraph their.
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