Re: should i see a doctor for a racing mind?
- From: Rob <user@xxxxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Sun, 01 Feb 2009 18:16:17 GMT
gidisrael@xxxxxxxxx wrote:
Hi,
I’m an 18 yr old, I know I’m pretty smart, I’m a self taught computer
geek and a Microsoft Certified Technology Specialist, I also spent
sometime teaching programming at a computer institute and everything I
know I learnt on my own. However, when it comes to school work, I’m
terrible. We’ve had family problems since I was a pre teen, they’ve
just been escalating since then and my academics have been taking a
steep slope down. Last year, my schizophrenic father got violent with
my mum and now they don’t speak to each other at home anymore, also,
since my dad is a pastor, my parents cannot separate. I finally
landed rock bottom by failing my 12th grade! And I failed miserably in
four out of six subjects, I have to give a re exam now by March and I
fear I the same thing will happen again.
Problem is , I cannot pay attention to anything I’m studying for more
than 2 minutes. My mind wanders off so incredibly fast, I think of
just something random associated oddly to something I might see or
hear, then I jump from one thought to another, it’s like my brain is
over firing any neural network that’s lit up. Example: Hey an airplane
in the sky-> reminds me of Top Gun->Tom cruise is a great actor->He’s
has a kid right-> What would my kids be like when I grow up-> Oh I
would want a big house in the suburbs ->……….
And the madness goes on, after 5-10 mins I realize I was dreaming, I
then wonder how I landed on such an elaborate thought, then my mind
fires again back tracing everything I just thought, I cannot stay
attentive for even 2 mins. And I cannot study a THING! It takes hours
to read pages!
I’ve tried, praying hard, reading the bible, reading the bible in
French and English (I have a French exam) listening to music while
studying, studying with breaks, study at odd times, polyphasic sleep,
harsh exercise, self injury, try to “like what I read”, reading books
on how to read, reading tips like “open your mind” or count downward
while reading! Nothing works, and someone suggested going to a
doctor! Would I happen to be bipolar? People tell to me stop whining
but I really can't get my brain to pull through.
Also, i feel enraged when things go wrong, i automatically feel
depressed/covered in jealousy when i see people with friends, i have
no friends or company myself, i always think people hate me no matter
what and a lot of times people take advantage of me, as a result I
feel this pain that i want to feel physically so i always want to hurt
myself, i usually cut my wrist.
Thanks
Gideon
There is a saying :
Mind slow is normal.
Mind fast is madness
Mind stopped is Buddha
I had a terrific memory, but it was a memory that was full of junk. I could remember every stupid thing that I done, every wrong thing I said, every argument that I had with someone from years ago word for word.
These thoughts were replayed again and again and again...........
Yes this memory came in handy sometimes for useful stuff and I amazed my friends with my recall.
I did not have a waking moments peace. Thoughts were constantly streaming into my mind. Every thing I said I played first in my mind before I said it.
Eventually a number of external circumstances combined with my own inner hell to produce a crisis.
My world started to collapse. I started to spiral down drink - oblivion was my only escape.
I went to my doctor and after a few treatments that did not work. I was prescribed Prozac. Nothing happened for two weeks,
Then one morning I woke up and it was as if somebody had flicked a switch. I could not believe it.
I had always had trouble waking and felt terrible that day to sound of a Saxophone playing on my clock radio I floated out bed.
There was no future no past unless I choose to think about them. I was living entirely in the PRESENT. I was as if I had taken 10 years of a Zen Meditation course.
There were lots of side effects. Over a period of a few months they disappeared to almost nothing.
I have been on medication for nearly 20 years. I have stopped a few times but I find I feel better than well when I take them.
So see your doctor. Find the right treatment
.
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