Re: a tale from seventh grade

On Aug 4, 11:37 am, Mark Stringer <ui...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
Tonawanda Kardex wrote:
so in my algebra class in seventh grade, i sat next to this girl ...
let's call her "jane", because she's a friend of mine on facebook
and i don't want anyone poking around her profile.
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 I feel like one of those people who felt compelled to confess past
sins after watching "The Passion of the Christ". . .

 In 4th grade my idiot friends and I went through a brief phase of
pulling the chair out from under each other as we were about to sit
down.  One day I pulled the prank on this girl I liked.  She wore a
brace cuz she had scoliosis so she went straight down with a perfect
posture right on her ***.

 I immediately got a sick feeling inside, even before she started to
cry.  I wasn't worried about the trouble I was about to get into cuz
I was in trouble for one thing or the other off the get-go.  Getting
in trouble was a mere inconvenience, even by that young age.  I
guess I knew what I'd done was truly wrong.

 The guilt I feel isn't in proportion to the crime so I don't know
why I'm haunted by that incident.  I'm playing armchair psychologist
but maybe it's because my father said you never strike a female?
No, I didn't strike her but something I did caused her physical pain
so it was like hitting her.

  If I saw Carol again I'd tell her how genuinely sorry I am for
hurting her in any way.

I know people that would not feel any guilt at all. Your guilt is
normal and requires empathy. If you would not have felt guilty you
probably would be more on the sociopathic side of things.
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