Re: DEG's finally hit rock bottom!!!!

On Sep 25, 1:17 am, DaManfred Mann <i...@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
marcman wrote:
On Sep 24, 7:36 pm, daves energyguide <tweezer...@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
wrote:
it seems the more space i get between us, that everytime i look back
the demons are still right there ready to devour me.

hey ya all,
 about two weeks ago, i had an old buddy call me up, and things went
down hill from there. in the end i ended up on a 3 day dope bing, and
got busted in dayton, Oh buying dope.

As LP pointed out, it is critical to your future to get away,
completely away, from "old friends".  I'm afraid the odds are
staggeringly against you (or anybody else for that matter) achieving
favorable long term results trying to get clean if the old friends are
still in the picture.

just got out on bail, my sister
has temporary custody of my daughter, and i go to court in 8 days.
mind you this will be my 7th possesion charge, so iam going down.

The bright side here of course is that its possession and not intent
to sell, distribute, traffic, etc. Possession indicates addiction not
criminal enterprise and maybe (hopefully) the Judge will help you
instead of giving up on you.

have
no money for a lawyer,

Did you speak with a court appointed atty? If not maybe you might
consider that as an option. If you did, what did he/she say about what
to expect?

so i hope to god that i get sent to drug court,
and go to treatment for 60-90. if not iam facing 1 1/2 yrs in the
joint.

Are you facing all of this without a court appointed atty?  Bro, as
lame as they might be (sometimes you get lucky and theyre not so lame)
its better than nothing. I'd be all over the internet looking up
requirements for drug court how to get into it and how to best
position yourself for treatment rather than prison.

where did things go wrong?

This may sound harsh and I'm sorry if it does, but you went wrong by
not being and staying sober. If you want positive change in your life
you need to face the fact that you're an addict and not only stay away
from the hard stuff, but the booze and weed too. Easy? Hardly.
Necessary?  Absofuckinglutely.

 i was over a yr. and a half off hard
narcotics, and i just fell right back in like nothing had changed, w/o
any regret of what i was doing. now, i feel like iam left w/ nothing
but a lifetime of guilt.

Despite what you're facing, today's a great day to count as day one. I
hope you find the strength to clear your head and change your
lifestyle and get away from all drugs, soft, hard or from a bottle.

ok, i got 2 things to say before i rant some more...

1) any of you younger kiddos think that drugs are the answer, ***
that, keep it natural. keep it real, or youll end up 36 yrs old w/
nothing like me. just keep your head on.

2) marcman, and Judson, ill be sending your stuff to you before my
court date. Judson, the whole 2009, and mr marcman (who is the
absolute ***) ill atleast be sending your poster, at least.
anyone who is about to send blanks, please wait till you hear back
from me.

some would feel embarassed to tell this *** on a NG, but this place
is my home, and i know some of you wondered where the *** i was at.
so, i sit here home incarcerated feeling like nothing could get worse.
i done fucked up big time. no 8, no fall tour. i havent missed a tour
since 97, damn.

Wayne my brother, it's not about missing 8 and fall tour. Its about
your little girl. Its not about the last 36 years, its about the next
36 years.

well, i love you all to death, and consider you my phriends, even you
newbies, much love.

wayne k

Right back at ya bud. Please trust me on this. Whatever the outcome
with this mess up, jail, treatment, whatever, none of it matters much
in the long run. If you don't change your ways starting *now* I'm
afraid this episode will repeat itself over and over again, just a
matter of time. Sobriety is the only way for somebody like yourself to
rejoin the living and get his life back together. That is of course if
you do actually want your life back in order. That's the key, you have
to want to do this. I'm just telling you that from my perspective, its
a lot clearer to me than it likely is to you that the only thing, the
ONE thing you need to do is get and stay sober.

End of preaching.

Nothing but my best wishes your way.

Marc

I could not have said any better.  

Thank you Dave. Coming from you that means a lot to me.


All the best to you Wayne and I know
you can do it with enough positive motivation.  We're not just your
virtual phriends on RMP, we're here for you, brother and don't you
forget it.

The love you've described and the stories you've told tell me all I need
to know about your heart, now just get your head together and your
daughter can have her music guide by her side.

Be strong.

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