Re: Rachel's New Place

On Dec 16, 8:59 pm, The Hysterical Bride <rache...@xxxxxxx> wrote:
On Dec 16, 8:40 pm, "Kerry (previously known as:\"kerry\")"





<dylanfo...@xxxxxxxxx> wrote:
On Dec 16, 6:52 pm, The Hysterical Bride <rache...@xxxxxxx> wrote:

I just noticed something weird.

I looked at the board, and two of Martin's posts were the last in the
threads, hence on the Google board, and the times were 2:10 and 2:38
consecutively, my birthday, and the Hebrew numerical value of my first
name.

Was this an accident?

I checked his posting history for the morning.

The first one he made was at 2:04, which holds no meaning for me.

Anyway, so I am left to wonder, was Martin thinking of me, or was it
just another goddamned coinkidink?

I'm betting on a coinkidink. Especially since he started at 2:04.

In any case, I thought I'd point it out.

Somebody chewed me out privately the other day in Kibology, which
included (lol) addressing me as "Miss Me."

I wonder how old I have to be before this stops being cute. lol.

I also have a terrible confession to make.

I like Kerry. I really do.

I think what happened was I was getting jealous. She almost never
talks to me. :( Consequently, in reading her ebullient posts, I have
been feeling left out and ignored.

That's why I sort of cast a shadow over her excitement this morning.

It was a childish thing to do, and I would like to apologize to her,
if she even reads this.

Also, I must confess. I didn't open Martin's links until much later in
the afternoon, when my boredom was excruciating, and...

OK, well...

I cried. Hearing Bob Dylan singing like that, feeling the proximity to
a live performance of this classic, moved me to tears.

Then I got over it.

So I totally understand where Kerry is coming from, but I'm kind of
over the music. I have kind of put it behind me.

I'm Dylaned out at present. (musically speaking)

Anyway, I hope Kerry can forgive me and my bad attitude.

Hey...I totally agreed with your post! I *was* getting a bit over the
top...and my kids *do* need me to be present for them in all ways! And
thankfully Martin is available to take over if I do have a fainting
spell, for an hour so, isn't that right, Martin? Phew...that *really*
is a relief! Nice guy to be willing to travel, how long is that flight
from England to San Francisco, Martin? Much obliged, I truly am...
No bad attitude was detected whatsoever, really...no worries at all...
And my ebullience likely gets to be a bit annoying, but in this
instance I had absolutely no control over it, it is just SUCH an
amazingly cool, awesome link!! (Okay, don't get me started again...)- Hide quoted text -

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I hesitated to reply because you said don't get me started again, but
then I realized (I think) that you meant about the link. No prob.

But I'm just so confused. Without boring y'all with the details, I am
having trouble interpreting the previous post. It's like I can
interpret it different ways, maybe just two ways, not sure, and I am
highly skeptical about what it really means.

I feel so unsure of myself.

Please allow me to just back away, and go mope in bed, and escape into
a different world. haha, get it? (tiny lol) A Different World? The
Cosby Show? mwah ...never mind. Big sigh.

OK, good-bye people, whoever you are, whatever you really mean, I have
no idea what people think of me, it's very crazy to literally NOT
KNOW.

I have to get out of here. NICOTINE GUM TO THE RESCUE!!!!!!!

Bye. :( (sad because I'm sorry because I feel like I don't really know
what is going on, who anybody is, where it's at)

sign me,
IDIOT WIND :(- Hide quoted text -

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P.S. to Kerry: I cannot find the words to express my awe and disbelief
over the fact that you are still reading my posts. I guess I haven't
driven EVERYONE away yet. Oy way do I feel so guilty. (Unless I am the
total fool, and everyone is talking over my head, and nobody really
likes me.) I feel so selfish, and self-centered, and guilty about my
motivations to want everything to go well with others. I think the
underlying cause of this is it seems like the only way to get to
Dylan. And I don't think it's pure. And that's the truth. However,
saying I only want Dylan because he is rich and famous was pure
bull***. I just said that to get his goat, if he even reads this. I
was just (lol) fucking with him, to "see how he would react." He
didn't, because I am not he, and I didn't pretend to be him reading
and reacting, so I don't know. Ok, I gotta go.
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