Re: Rachel's Place
- From: "Rachel" <goldarachel@xxxxxxxxx>
- Date: 24 Jul 2006 10:39:10 -0700
oops. forgot to fill in that P.S. after I ditched it.
i was trying to take Ziglveidt's words to heart, and not post anything
depressing, but I kinda still feel like, maybe I should get a real
But I'm just not cut out for it. I can't imagine with whom I would do
this. And I have to remind myself, I like being a bum. It suits me just
fine. I like kicking back and watching cable/television.
But oh, how I long to gently rub and play with that Bob Dylan hair!
I know it's all just a fantasy.
Maybe that's what's bumming me out right now.
Back to the tube...
I really am so grateful for all of you who read me. Thank you.
Thank you so very much.
Dear Mr. Dylan,
Please don't be like Vincent Van Gogh and shave off your hair and send
it to me in the mail. I like it better on your head. The pictures are
good enough for me.
sorry, to make it clear, i have not seen that movie.
i'm GLAD you enjoy my posts.
maybe it's not so much that i enjoy writing them all the time, but
certainly when i go back and read them, i do. lots of them. even then
ones i wrote when i was in pain. i am grateful that i have something
that i can do to work through it, and then afterwards, feel that i have
made something positive out of it. i really feel that way. i like my
writing. i am so glad i have my writing, always. even before meeting
bob dylan. i would go back and read the fruits of my roller coaster
ride, and be impressed with it. not so sure, perhaps, if i should be
*pleased*, but drawn in by the realness, the honesty/ingetrity, the
passion, the human being behind the idiot wind.
yes, i am entirely conflicted, because it is a hard life, too, but i
like it so much, and i just don't see any other way, anything else for
me. maybe in time that will change, i don't know.
i am now looking at 53230, and want to put my hand on Bob Dylan's hair,
and rub it, because it looks so enticing.
i know, lots of people have great hair, but it's coming out of bob
dylan's head, and no other hair can do *that* for me! :)
love to the imaginary bob dylan reader, and gratefulness to all the
i would just like to make it clear, based on the posts by stupid
worker, that i don't see it that way "scathing put downs (it's so blue
collar)" it's my mother, and the way she said it, when i was senior in
High School, and the scornful looks she gave me when she said it.
in my adult years, i have met people from all walks of life, including
some "dates" with people i met over the internet, who were "blue
collar" and i was put in my place, to learn, to see from them (well, a
him, in particular) that that did not in anyway imply that he was not
well educated. he read. and obviously knew much more about things in
general than i did. but i have to say, from the impression i got, from
my mother, was that this did not even exist.
but it does, and i had to learn it on my own, from my own life
experiences, and so now i know.
and it's me, here, writing, Rachel :), *not* my snobby mother, whom i
love desperately, but can't handle very much, because she is such a
snob, and hates what i am doing with my life.
i don't know what more she expects of me, given that i am on
disability, and it's a very real thing, for a very real reason.
boker tov, ziggy.
yes, i enjoy writing TREMEMDOUSLY.
more than sex. :)
well, the first post yesterday was kinda a downer, but after that, it
was good fun, and good effort, and good work, for me. all bit of all
did you enjoy crying while watching the movie?
i enjoy crying during movies, but none of the movies i've been watching
in recent years seem to offer that, much.
and oh, of course, a good morning to everyone else, too! :) i'm just
not in that great a mood because i woke up with back pain and had some
disturbing dreams. i hate dreaming. it's senseless, and somewhat
in this last one, i had become pregnanat, somehow, then remembered who
the father was, not Bob Dylan, a distant relative i know, and i was
crying, "i don't want to have this baby" and then feeling horribly
guilty, because the baby was already inside me, i was well on my way,
and it was just horrible. see what i mean? disturbing, and senseless.
well, i make no attempts to shovel a glimpse into the ditch of what it
means. i don't even know what *that* means. ditch? what is he saying
about dreams? good thing my goal in life is no longer (it was once
while living at the Board and Care) to interpret all of Bob Dylan's
songs, properly. i'm not even interested enough to read what other
people have to say about them (academic books).
i just like him, ya know? :)
happy day to all. :)
Ziglveidt B. Shtoonk wrote:
on one of the "stupid" (i've got to be in the mood) t.v. shows i like,
7th Heaven, an older couple who had just lost their dog asked the
Reverend, do dogs go to Heaven, and he said yes.
but not cats!
they are sadistic bloodhtirsty predatory creatures!
(or jews becasue according to christian evangelists g-d doesnt hear our
boker tov rachel
i hope you had a good weekend
i read your posts this morning and you have more ups and downs than a
roller coaster amusement park ride
the only way i could enjoy reading them is if i knew you wre having fun
otherwise if you are in pain i would feel guilty about enjoying
something that was written by someone who was hurting
please tell me that you are ok
btw i saw the movie the last samurai last night and cried many times
its as good a history of why things are the way they are as any movie i
have seen lately
did you see it?
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