Re: ooo i'm so glad to be here...

This rant sounds rather healthy. Way to go. Seems to me that a big
first step toward mental health, or just getting by, is to figure out a
way to love mom but quit listening to her. You're obviously pretty
good at saying the right things when she's gone! Maybe a slightly
turned down version of that speech could be delivered to her for real.
But what do I know. Good luck.

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