Re: OT: just blah....one cool thing, though...

On Jun 11, 8:04 pm, PreciousKittyKat <PreciousKitty...@xxxxxxxxx>
wrote:
On Jun 9, 9:36 am, FlatIronMike <FlatironMike...@xxxxxxxxx> wrote:

PKK!  I am glad that you posted as you have been quiet a lot since the
death of your Dad.  Losing a parent is always hard but you do have the
wonderful memories of him knowing you run and when you run I expect
you will feel closer to him because of that.  As others have already
written, the pain will leave over time but the memories will always be
with you.  Run with the joy you shared with him and run well!

FlatironMike
Two years, three months, four weeks, one day, 12 hours, 6 minutes and
16 seconds. 16990 cigarettes not smoked, saving $5,096.78. Life saved:
8 weeks, 2 days, 23 hours, 50 minutes.

Thanks everyone for your kind thoughts, words/condolences.  Everytime
I think that things might be getting better...I just seem to go
backwards.  If I could make it just one day without crying and feeling
so sad...I wish I could just not MISS him so much.  It sounds like
many here have experienced much loss...and similar losses...so, it
isn't like I'm alone.  Everything feels so empty.  Things that I used
to think interesting...just seem so bland.  I think...because my dad
and I were close, and had similar philosophies on things...I was
inclined to share many of my interests with him...most things that
perhaps interested him...have really not been interesting to anyone
else...whether that be...husband, mom, kids, friends...my dad was the
one I really visited with and shared with.  Just basic day to day
things that we would talk about...the weather...the
news...politics...local current events...horse
racing...running...trees...you name it...he is the one I talked to
about all these things.  Something would happen on the news that was
interesting...I'd give him a call.  Weather bad?  give dad a
call...The MN Vikings game on TV...see that play? call dad.  Go up to
mom and dad's for coffee.  Mom would usually make herself busy with
other things...while dad and I visited.  She never particularly was
too interested in many of our conversations...nothing wrong about
it...just that she has different interests.

So...I've lost this wonderful friend.  Now...I feel empty.  I just
can't replace it.  Such a void.  A void that I know isn't going to be
filled.

I feel like I can't keep crying about this...I feel like...it is
getting frustrating for people to see me like this, when they probably
think I should be feeling better by now.  I don't know.

I worry that I will forget him.

well...I'm at work...and am about ready to cry again, so I am going to
go get busy with work...
PKK
Almost 2 years of living smoke-free. There is no amount of stress or
sorrow that will make me light up another cigarette.

Happy 22 months.......
It will take time for the pain to pass.
Maybe a long time.
But.....the void..... it will absolutely be filled.
You watch and see.
I've got an idea for you.....
Go get a tree, find a good spot, dig a hole and plant it.
Whenever you need to visit your dad, you can go to that tree.
.

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