Re: frustrated with my med team and hubby and I am rebelling

On Feb 7, 12:04�am, PolarBear <carme...@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
so far my life was going well. I started school and I am enjoying it.
Well not always, homework can be a pain in the ***. :)

All my life I have been an A+ student, always wanting to be perfect. I
remember one time I cried in class cause I got an B+ on my test and my
class mates couldn't believe I was upset.

I have not changed my attitude. But it seems everyone around me has a
problem with it. My medical team, my husband and my family don't want
me to be an A student. They want me to settle for less. In their
opinion an A is not worth risking my health.

Just because a doctor decided to diagnose me BP, I have all those
restrictions and limitations. I just feel like getting off those
stupid meds, drop my medical team and do what I want. I am so sick and
tired of people telling me what to do. Why is it so hard for my family
to understand that I just want to be good at school, but it is not for
free. I have to study for that.

I am in the middle of trying to balance my life, somehow. And I know I
am a bit on high speed right now. But this is the part I like and it
is what helps me to get all the homework done.

thanks for listening

PolarBear
/me run out of ammo, is sick and tired of the battle and wants to
leave her post.

I understand, Carmen. I have to make an A or get the max number of
points or I feel really bad. I feel as if I failed. It is rooted in
illness, as much as I hate to admit it, and I need to learn to relax
and be ok with less than perfect. Otherwise, it will be hard for me to
ever be happy.

I wish that I had a family and a medical team to be concerned about my
health, Carmen. Believe it or not, you are blessed.

Don't abandon your post :) Stop and reload.

Annette
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