Re: I can't keep it in..anymore

AZ, I can't express adequately my sympathy for the loss of Rolex. If
something happened to my favorite cat, I don't know how I'd manage.

You know you're welcome to come here and post and ask for some support and
comiseration. You are loved here. And you know a lot of us (me me me) have
some substantial experience with depression and loss and all the other ***
life hands out. It's good to reach out and to be reminded, by those of us
who've been there:

This too shall pass. Just try to have a little faith that there's some
light down there at the end of that tunnel, and that you'll get there. In
the meantime, please be extra kind to yourself. And keep posting.

ep oooooooof



"AZ" <zikra.nospam@xxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Alexander, my son, has graduated from college. My little boy is a
Construction Engineer. When I went to Iowa for his graduation, I had a
great time. But Alex, is 23, and he had a lot more important things to do
than to spend time with his dad. Things like...girls, parties, friends,
beer...I am not upset about it. I actually expected it. I came back to
Louisiana, sad as hell, and happy as hell at the same time. Alex is no
longer a kid. He is a man with his own life. HE will decide when he wants
to see his dad, or brother, who will be doing the same in two years. I am
not upset about it. I am just in a deep depression!

Rolex is not here to talk to. I miss his nose trying to get under my
chin. I miss him waiting for me when I got home. He thought I died every
morning when I left for work, and it was a miracle that I got home from
the dead, and he was so happy to see me. We did that every day. Not
anymore.
My girl friend and I split up 2 weeks ago. My dad passed away before I
had a chance to tell him I was sorry and loved him very much. My best
friend crashed his plane and died. I don't even like my work anymore.
I just cannot take on anymore. My tank is empty. I am running on fumes,
till I run empty. What then?
GAWD, Depression is a killer. I am seeing a "Shrink" and she has put me
on anti depressant but it takes like 3 days to get into my system.

I am not looking for sympathy, nor am I looking for answers. I just
wanted to write about how I'm feeling. Maybe this helps, although some
kind of salty liquid is just rolling down my cheeks.

Thanks for reading. If you are still reading, God bless you, I don't why
you did. I did not go to work today, as I would have been useless.

I really am having a very hard time. I am sorry

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AZ



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