Re: Odds & Ends & Random thoughts.

On Feb 12, 4:31 pm, robbb <robbREMOVE...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
Thank you for an interesting and very thoughtful read!

Jeanne Moreau - looks fantabulous at age 80.

Yori Bertin - 67 and still with us!

Georges Poujouly died at 60

Jean Wall died of a heart attack at 58

Elga Andersen died at 59

Maurice Ronet died at 56

Cheers & hugs,
robbster



PreciousKitty...@xxxxxxxxx wrote:
I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
why I quit.  This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
to watch some old favorite movies.  One of which is Elevator to the
Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud).  It is a French subtitled movie
made in 1958.  I dig that stuff.  Anyways, as I sat down to watch it..
I cleared out the room when I put that in.  The husband went upstairs
to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!?  She then promptly
removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes!  EVERYONE IN
THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM!  They all smoke, the young,the old,
the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke.  All these old
'50's French films are that way.  And you know what?  The first thing
I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking".  HUH?!?  I
didn't think...ewwww gross.  I thought..."Damn.  Jeanne Moureau sure
looks sexy smoking...how cool".  Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
that at 6 months.  And, I don't think it is junkie thinking.  I really
do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever.  I
think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
It was a little moment of reality.

Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
going to be smoking within days...NOT.  Here are some other things I
thought of...

In regards to the above-mentioned film.  They are frozen in time.
Frozen in 1958.  Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
their cigarettes.  BUT...this is 2008.  I wonder what they look like
now, if any of them are alive?  I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
health?  their looks?  I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.

Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
notice within the past month.  I am now able to take nice, big deep
DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
oxygen.  Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing.  I don't think I was
breathing very good at all for a very long time.  I feel so much
better now in terms of breathing.  I also really notice and appreciate
good smells.  I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
life!  It isn't masked by my smoke smell.

I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
quitting smoking.  I've bought some lovely little things and some big
things with my no-smoking $$$.  This has been fun, too!  I have a goal
now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
"healthy".  Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
( and...I was never hungry.

Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
didn't want to do that.

Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety.  I
also do a lot of deep breathing exercises.  These both are very
helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest.  I always ALWAYS
dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling.  And...it almost
always worked.  It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
deep breathing techniques work as well as they do.  I am able to
relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
presence of smoke!  Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
smoking.  A miracle. :)  I'm grateful for that!

As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
the world of smoking.  It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
and on...Marlboro Reds.  That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
to her until I am blue in the face.  I don't know what else I can say
or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes.  A
bittersweet victory to be sure.  Quite a bit of guilt as well.  But, I
will not let it affect my smoke-free status.  It is another
inspiration to stay smoke free.  I will continue to try to stop my
daughter from going too far down this road.  Any suggestions are
welcomed.

Well,  for the most part, all is well in my world.

I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke.  I'm not
having any major craves.  Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
certainly manageable.

Thanks for listening to my many ramblings  :)
PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
22 hours, 15 minutes.- Hide quoted text -

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It was interesting to hear about the folks that played in that film.
I noticed many died relatively young (from smoking?). I am glad to
hear that Jeanne Moureau is still lookin' good at 80! Good for her!
I wonder if she still smokes? Oh...the things I wonder about! Thanks
for the update on the actors/actresses in that movie :)
PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
Six months, two days, 22 hours, 11 minutes and 7 seconds. 3738
cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,121.80. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
23 hours, 30 minutes.
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