Re: On Quitting and Self-Worth ...

On Jul 13, 5:24 pm, "Edna Pearl" <edna_pe...@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
wrote:
Thank you, Ashley. Every note you've posted to me has been so empathetic,
so compassionate. I really appreciate your support. And your advice is
spot on. I'm really trying to just concentrate on eating right, resting,
and keeping my mind occupied with books, movies, art, music, and phone calls
with friends. I try to take short walks and bike rides. As you say, baby
steps. It's going to take some time.

We can always count on as3.

ep ooooooof

"writer272002" <writer272...@xxxxxxxxx> wrote in message

news:1184357888.334811.185080@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx



Edna Pearl,

I don't know you as well as many people here in AS3, but as I've said
before I feel a special kinship with you. You live in the state where
I grew up -- in my favorite part of it, actually. You were one of the
first to respond when I joined this group in a total rush, needing
help because I was blowing my quit but not really understanding why,
and I've always remembered your very sensible advice and thoughts.

I would have sent you a card or called or whatnot but obviously I
don't have your information. So what I've done is what we've all done
here: Post and let you know that you're loved.

I know you know that, but I've been where you are (with the "boojums"
as Joyce puts it -- what a great word), when all the love and
companionship in the world somehow doesn't seem to ease your sense of
loneliness. It's a dark place, and I'm sorry you are there. If I
could, I'd just come sit with you and hold your hand. I'm glad,
though, that your SO is there with you and that you are able to get
out and do things like a drive in Baldwin County. I love it, too.

I've seen many psychologists and psychiatrists myself, and as a breed
I don't like them much, either. But sometimes they are a necessary
evil, if only to help us figure ourselves out.

And you know what? Don't worry about sustaining a "normal" mood. Don't
worry about knowing what to do next. Concentrate on taking baby steps
and do what you need to do to be gentle with yourself, even if you do
it with tears in your eyes. And as always, please let us know what we
can do to help, if anything, and if not just check in with your
adoring fans from time to time.

BIG hugs.
Ashley- Hide quoted text -

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Edna Pearl,

I cant add much to what Joyce and Ashley and others have said.
What I WILL tell you is, I am in that dark place myself..and
everything you described.
Its a lonley nightmarish blanket of (whatever is the opposite of Hope)
But Sweety..you ARE worth so much...you just dont see it...thats
all....doesnt mean you are not worth anything. You are. and its OK to
be who you are RIGHT NOW. You are LOVED - JUST AS YOU ARE .
I gotta tell MYSELF this...because its TRUE - despite how I feel..Im
ok as who I am...just as I am...
I wish I were there where you are, we'd have so much to chat about -
I'd give you my shoulder.
I wish I had a friend down here - but...this is where I am...and this
is what Ive got.
Im learning (as hard as it is FOR ME) To enjoy myself ...enjoy time
with myself...get to know who I am....and its hard...its very
difficult.
PLUS...not to give in to temptation to slide back with apathy and
resignation..and say F it..and start smoking again...
Its not easy...BUT WE GOT EACHOTHER on this board. Im new here...Ive
been struggling. I struggle MORE with the lonliness of today, and PTSD
from an experience that happened over a year ago.

Im trying new things...but things that I like.
Im trying to get my feet wet again..or what they say " Getting back on
the Horse " after you fall off. Im not back on the horse yet, but I
got my foot in the Stirup.

((((((((((((((((((((( Edna Pearl )))))))))))))))
I feel for you....I know that feeling........sad to say...Im very
aquainted with it.

Lotsa love coming your way..and as Ashley said, Baby steps.
Hope you have many better days than these.

Steve

Three weeks, six days, 3 hours, 25 minutes and 9 seconds. 678
cigarettes not smoked, saving $108.57. Life saved: 2 days, 8 hours, 30
minutes.

.

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