Re: Im Still Around

hi Becky,

It sounds like you're taking the steps to become your own best friend!
There is no better person to help you quit than you. All the fear and anger
you feel at having to quit will work to help you. Use what you have to take
control of the addiction. Use the love you have for your family. Use your
sadness. Everything you have and everything you feel will help you keep
quit. Use this group. And as impossible as it may seem now, in about a
week or less your last good nerve will begin to grow new good nerves and it
will begin to get a little easier. Day by day -- sometimes minute by
minute.

Best of luck,
Liz
1Y4M3W2D


"Becky" <sobern2003@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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I havent changed my mind and ran away.Im still here.I still want to quit. I
just watched a video online about a lady named Barb Tarboro.It made me cry
because this lady died at age 41 of lung cancer and left behind a husband
and 9 year old daughter. I was sitting and imaginging leaving my husband
and 15 year old son behind. I am being selfish by continuing to
smoke,knowing what I am doing to myself. Damn fucking cigarettes!!!!I
fucking hate how addicting they are,the way the addiction fucks with mmy
head. Motherfuckers!!! Nasty disgusting things! Fucking overflowing
ashtrays,ashes everywhere,rancid smoke smell in my house and car,cigarette
burns in the carpet and my clothes,secondhand smoke I force my son and
2years smokefree husband to put up with.Motherfucking cravings and lameass
excuses to keep smoking.
How,oh how do I overcome the fears surrounding quitting? I fear the
withdrawals,the mood swings, the not having them in times of stress.But ya
know what? *** it!! I m quitting. I am gonna go into this with a positve
attitude!!!! FEAR= either *** Everything and Run or Face Everything and
Recover. I know what my best bet is!!!!! Im thinking I shold do this thing
now,rather than wait and risk talking myself out of it! If I do it now I
will have several days under my belt when the day I planned to quit rolls
around. The worst of the withdrawals will be over,and I will not have to
spend my vacation dreading having to face work for the first time without
smoking because I will have already done so.In 8 more minutes it will be
10pm as of this writing. I have 8 minuts to smoke the last one and get rid
of them as well as the ashtrays and stuff. *** it .Im done!!No more
smoking. Its gonna suck for awhile,so bear with me as I cuss and scream
and cry and do whatever I need to do to stop.I have located the BDU site
for future reference,in case someone steps on my last good nerve and I
have to kill them.LOL.Be Back in a few to post my meter.
Becky



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