Re: PING: TERESA AND GREAT BLOG FOR EVERYONE!!
- From: "Teresa" <withcamera@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Sun, 18 Apr 2010 11:46:32 -0700
See...I'm no better at getting back to people.
Listen sweetie, you contact me when you are up to it don't worry about it.
I totally understand.
I go to "psychcentral" all the time.
It's a great place with lots of info.
Take care kiddo~
"Hawaiian Wayne" <birdie998@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message news:2880cd27-166c-42c9-824d-c68410775d74@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Here I am again with what I hope is a little something that may help a
few (hopefully more than a few) realize what took me a hell of a long
time to realize. Really, didn't even consciously realize this until I
saw (and read) the article. Funny thing about these "blogs" in
PsychCentral, I seem to get more out of the blog itself by reading the
"discussions" from those that also read it afterwards. I don't know
why that is or to be honest, care. That's just the way it works for me
and I'm OK with that.
It's (per subject line) about suffering. ALL kinds of suffering really
but the emphasis is on emotional and psychological, of course. What
would one expect from a "psych" site? LOL!
The link for it is here:
I hope it works.
One word of caution if I may; keep an open mind while reading the blog
and remember...most people DON'T do this...this is someone's BLOG
only. Basically, what is a blog? Someone's feelings or opinions put
into words and thrown out to the world on the WWW. That is why I say I
get most of what I need(?) or wanted to say myself to people but I
simply don't have the gift of (I want to say GAB, but that isn't it!
BWAHAHAHAHA!! The gift of getting my point(s) across very well using
the written word. There, that's it! Yeah, that's the ticket...
The ONE thing that I still haven't seen any convincing type of blog of
as yet is just HOW does a person convey what it is like to live with a
body that has let the person living in it down in life. You know what
I mean? What it's like to live a life that you never EVER even
IMAGINED in your wildest dreams or whatever would happen to you. I
still firmly believe that the only real way a person can understand
fully and 100% of what it is like to make that slow (or
fast..slow..very slow for me. Almost TOO slow!) slide downhill where
such a small bit of your career, relationships with friends and
family, income, plans for the future, etc are/have been taken away
from you that it is almost imperceptible until you finally get to that
ONE DAY where it suddenly hits you right between the eyes that you
have been fooling yourself (like I did) but kept giving it the old
"college try" and do whatever it took to keep a career going along
with all those other things I mentioned WITHOUT EXPERIENCING IT.
I've talked and talked myself to near death with some people who after
the first or second time of listening to me try and convey what it's
like to have nearly every aspect of your life ripped out from under
you, literally taken away from you and there is nothing you can do
about it. Absolutely NOTHING!
That is a feeling no one really can know without the experience
itself, in my mind. There are some of my "friends" and family who
"say" they understand and also "think" they understand, but don't.
Those of us who think the same way about this as me knows exactly what
I mean. Soon after they say they understand or may even say they THINK
they understand will suddenly not DO something or THINK of something
or SAY something that actually shows that they really don't understand
how you feel or what it is like to live like this (in a shell of a
body that is irreparably broken and cannot be fixed because you've
been told face-to-face by all of your surgeons).
All the little aggravations that we go through day and night, day and
night, day and night and on and on forever can't be put into words
because there simply are way too many of them and besides, who, with a
healthy body overall, really even WANTS to hear of it. Especially
every time they see you or speak to you or email you or whatever... no
one really. Some of our true "friends" actually WILL ask how we are
doing and act and sound like they sincerely mean the question, but we
all know deep inside they know what is coming. It's always the "same
old, same old". HOWEVER, they realize how important and how much it
means to simply ask us that question and pretend (not really the
correct word) to actually mean it and that is why they do it. It shows
us that those few people we had in our lives that stuck with us and do
this were really the true friends we thought ALL of them that we had
were. (What a jolt of a surprise THAT was to most of us, wasn't it?
When most of our "friends" stopped calling or coming around....or even
seemed to care anymore! For me, THAT was (and kind of still is) one of
the biggest shocks of travelling this path to nothingness. Well,
that's how I feel my life is now in comparison to what it used to be.
It's laughable if it weren't so true. Shit...
I better quit now before I get myself much farther (further?) down
that "funky bottomless pit". I’ve said enough anyway.
I do hope some or most get something out of this article (blog). As
hard as it is to believe for those who haven't suffered physically
like some of us, suffering itself IS just another offshoot of a normal
human emotion,. Trouble is, we really don't realize that or even feel
like 'learning' about that at the time. Which is totally
understandable! Who, I ask, would choose to go through any type of
suffering if given the choice? Not too many, I bet.
As you'll see in the "discussion" after the blog, one person actually
says that in her/his response. It IS an eye opener. Give it at least a
"trying" read. OK?
Aloha Just For Now,
PS: Teresa, I'm honestly sorry for not corresponding with you but I'm
just not that type of a Internet Person. For example, I have a friend
I've known for almost a decade in Canada that constantly writes me and
only when he really sounds desperate to hear from me do I write him
back but when we first started to email each other, we'd write a
couple of times a day! Go figure. But we are still in touch. I even
paid for his van to get fixed back in 2003 (or so) when he didn't have
any means of money or getting it fixed and he has children and meds
and doctor appointments and the like! It was something like $500-$600
Canadian. But I did it and he was and will be (probably) forever
grateful. You can see how close I tend to get to people in order to do
something like that! I don't know, maybe it was the 25 years of living
in Minnesota that did it and it was wintertime (of course). I trusted
him and still do. We would love to meet each other some day but know
that possibility hardly (if even) exists. ANYWAY, I'll at least write
to you so you have my email addy because I DO want to know what LP's
you have. (I'd walk a mile over broken glass on my knees for ANY vinyl
records these days! Honestly!). OK, ENOUGH!!! Jeeez!
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