Re: food for thought

marcusboy54 <partyboz@xxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message:
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This day as been like a roller coaster been flooding tear for 2 hours
now ,think I could of filled a bucket I am writing this blog while
listening to EMINEM hAILEYS SONG,my life almost like 80% .I read
justins blog try to get wisdom cause knows life like I use to.Where
has my happiness been the last 3 years cant belivie it just
disappears,why can t I turst my heart to have a final relationship and
being IN LOVE AGAIN
.Have I frozen my heart so it will never be broken again ,damn I love
being in love but is it worth the broken heart I know ill have when it
ends ,now i am not sure why i am even venting this othe than been
trying for months now to understand wht true love feels like again,and
happiness when will it come back.

Keep in mind the old adage, "It's better to have loved and lost, than
never to have loved at all." Of course you want to protect yourself, but
don't close yourself off so much that love can't get in.

Or am i winding down and just gave up
belivie me when i say this as iam really trying so hard to get off
cripts for pain

Why?

If you need painkillers, you need them. Don't try to be a hero.

but been on so long its like load the gun pain never
gonna go away ,love will never fall apon me again ,happiness has left
me for good, but theres a small something in me to wanna see what
tomorrow brings but when it gets here its the same as the day
before.Sad I know but Ive lost all logic about every part of life,All
i know for sure is everyday is like the day before. well ill close
with that been 10 days with oput pain meds i mean the strongest there
is but ,got a joint smoked it and now iam writing now ,Guess what iam
not depressed at the moment but i know i could never just start
smoking pot 24/7 again or I mite just fall in love again and wake up
till another day like yesterday!!
god bless all and hope tery and justin can shed some lite .
god bless all
marcus from some where suspened in time.

Finnal comment they Made a movie in the 90s called Groundhog Day with
Bill MUrry where everyday he woke up and it was the same but every day
when it was the same he learned and everyday he learned more till it
ended just a movie and my finnal thought on this

Take care, and don't give up on yourself.

--
Juba
www.masterjuba.com


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