Re: My (audult) daughter

I agree that you should have been at the meeting. So often, though,
people seem to treat our generation and my mom's as children. My
prayers are for you. When you move to NC, wave across the border to
me in Columbia, South Carolina.

(((((((((((((((Granpa Gus))))))))))))))))))))

Loujean

On Sun, 09 Apr 2006 03:04:57 GMT, "Grampa Gus" <starob@xxxxxxx> wrote:

Hi

Yesterday was a particularly painful day preceded by a lousy sleep. As far
as moving to NC I suspect it will be years rather than months, or a decade.

I never imagined that my posting would get so many responses, thank you all.
I'm pretty worn down tonight, and my next plan is to drive to a
semi-isolated area of the parking lot for a California smoke, if you know
what I mean. It's so effective I just can't believe it's not more common. I
took my last pain killers at 4:30PM, when I go do my thing I won't need
another pain killer until tomorrow around 10:00am.

The following I've written to only to give some more context about what's
been going on with me. I wrote it as carefully as I could in order to give
offense to no one. So in the event that I do offend anyone, please contact
me. I write this only to tell what's been going on with me.

I've just dropped an on going effort to make a report to about an
organization that I feel wronged me. For 14 months they gave me the run
around, but mainly ignored me. It was interesting to recently read some of
their assumptions about me; when my whole issue to begin with was that I
couldn't get any attention until I took my report/request for mediation to
the national level. Well... I'll give a little more context, this
organization is the type that, at least as I understand their book, is all
about help, love, and serving others needs. As my severe (other) health
problems continued, and then two auto accidents paralyzed my legs (I was
literally in the VA hospital then when a group of 4 at the org got together
to discuss "how to help" me. They decided the problem is that I'm a drug
addict and therefore they had to stop "enabling me" because that's what I
needed. So the whole organization, either by email, or "word of mouth" was
informed of this.

Maybe I'm wrong, but I think I had a right to be at that meeting, and that
if I was becoming a problem then they should have come and talked to me
about it -- first! However, after 14 months of attempting to get one person
from this organization to ask me what I have to say for myself I finally
realized what I needed to figure out. They aren't the type who ask such
questions.

I later learned that the real cause for my erratic behavior was severe
malnutrition (so bad I lost 2/3's of my teeth). When I told the org this it
had no affect on them.

So having let go I've found just how much my effort was costing me:
emotionally and, of course, physically and pain. That's the main reason, I
think, that yesterday was such a tough day -- emotions.

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