Re: Legend

Great to hear this Steffane... Now it really is going to be HAPPY NEW YEAR
This is so great to hear!!!!!!

(((((((((((STEFFANE)))))))))

Ronnie
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"Kindness is a hard thing to give away,
for it is usually returned."

"Steffane" <canUfinish@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
news:X6Itf.43248$lJ7.25065@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
> I could not do it. I talked to Makayla last night and she was so happy to
> talk to me and I just couldnt. I dont know if that makes me a wuss or
not.
>
> I am doing something else stupid I know but I might as well get it out. I
> am having a man who is a friend move into the basement that I have known
> since I was 7. He is in love with me. He has always been in love with
me.
> I have told him there will never be anything between us as I will always
be
> in love with my ex. I told him if I wanted to date others I would (that
is
> if I can ever walk properly again) and that if he wants to do this that I
> would be eternally grateful.
>
> I wont lose the house. At least not for now. MAYBE I can get the back
> problems under control. Was at the hospital a few nights ago in pain and
> have a epidural set up for wed. Not that it will work. But that is their
> first course of action.
>
> Maybe my daughter wont see me as a failure. I did give her the option of
> living here(which is a 2500 sqft house lol) to moving to a apt like
daddys.
> Well of course she chose here. I told her she would lose her play room as
> that is where Jim would be putting his things. She was a little ticked
but
> is getting over it. Remember she is 4. Jim is a good man just not good
for
> me. Tonight they are out at mutual friends doing up the New Years.
>
> I think your post really got to me. I am not thinking of her am I? I
am
> being selfish. I have eaten I dont know if that was what caused all of
this
> but they also changed meds to percocet which helps a little more.
>
> My ex husband who does see her has been paying me not paying through
friend
> of court and now since I applied for assistance food stamps and title 19
for
> her they have gone back on him. WELL it takes 2 months. They immediatley
> take the money out of his acct but they dont immediatly stick it in mine.
> SO that will be 2 months with out child support. I think I have him
> convinced to pay me and I will pay him back. They say bad luck runs in
> threes but in my case it is a river. I am lucky jim is going to be our
> rescuer this time. Hopefully next time it can be me who saves us. I have
> no idea how that can happen. However I have decided that I have not been
> living right. Obviously if all this bad stuff has been happening to me.
> Either there is a god and I have either been forgotton or there isnt a god
> and I have incredibly bad luck Either way we are going to start going to
> church as soon as I am able. What is bad is I cant even sit in a
wheelchair
> for very long because of the pain in my *** and let uggggggggg I am so
> sick of myself. Have you ever been so low that you havent showered in 3-4
> days? Well that is me right now because I cant get my hands above my
head.
>
> Thank you for your message, Between you and Makayla I am still here.
For
> how long I dont know. But for today I am. At least until one week after
> the epidural. However I do have an appt with two pain clnics within the
> next month so we will see.
>
> Again
> thank you
>
>


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