Re: THIS SUCKS

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((((((OG))))))

Don't be so hard on yourself. We know you would, if you could. You
have no idea how many people you help right here in this ng. Your
knowlege and your out stretched hand to strangers is visible to anyone
who reads your posts. As much as you might like to do the "physical"
things to help people, your role as a helper has not stopped OG. Your
role has simply changed a little. You have no doubt helped more people
than you can imagine right here. Think of all the people who come here
for the first time searching for answers on how to handle the hand
they've been dealt. You are always there to give the best advice of
anyone in here. Your medical advice is second to no one.

So my friend, instead of kicking yourself in the arse, you should be
patting yourself on the back! You have brought alot of help to those
who have ventured in here. Don't ever think what you do is menial in
any way. You will never know how many lives you may have saved in
here. You have touched more people than most of us.....keep up the
good work!



OldGoat wrote:
> Dear Folks,
>
> You know most of us here people with no face, which is really how it should
> be I guess, so nothing is taboo.
> Things are never how you expect them to go in life, so I guess it's foolish
> to expect anything from it. I always thought I'd find myself at a cross
> roads in my life where if I took the right, not quite the easiest, but the
> right fork and I could go to my grave knowing I did something, not looking
> for fame, not looking for fortune, not even wanting recognition, other than
> someone to say "that guy helped me". Just make a difference to make
> someone's life a little better and move on to the next guy. I feel like the
> 2 guys having breakfast in Pulp Fiction, talking about the TV show "kung
> fu", "just walking the earth and having adventures".
> Here I sit, with a 2/3 wasted body, with the adventure to help and move on
> to be going on for months, even years, in the Gulf Coast. I've been to New
> Orleans and been to Gulfport and been to Biloxi, they were beautiful places
> and my time there was way too short. But my path is there rolled out smack
> dab in the face to go to help strangers by the scores and the "situation" of
> my lifetime has me more likely to become a causality helping anyone. My mind
> is so focused to do good, I could bore a couple of eyeholes through a brick
> wall to get it done. The saying "the mind is willing, but the flesh is weak"
> may have been meant for other situations, but my mind and body just want to
> explode to from this desire to help. Give a kid a candy bar, a fireman a
> clean bottle of drinking water, just some goddamnthing other than wishing I
> was in the middle of it, and not caring if I come back out in one piece or
> not, just helping. And thanks to King George and the other oil Barron's
> getting richer on this mess, I don' know if I can handle the monthly copays,
> docs and meds, much less have a couple of nickels to rub together to send to
> help or even get down there. If they find any organs they can use, they can
> have them all. It's not like there's anything else that is all mine to
> freely give.
> Sorry to bitch, it seems like there's so many with so little and I used to
> be able to handle a bucket truck, a chainsaw, and know what I'm doing pretty
> damn well around hot high voltage lines. It makes me fell disgusted with
> myself when I see the convoys of power company trucks rolling south, knowing
> what they'll be doing, rebuilding the power grid, clearing the mess, block
> by block, while I felt like a stroke was on it's way for trying to crank up
> the grass trimmer.
> No sympathy please. It just seems to make the inadequately even more
> mountainous. I just need a stiff drink and a solid night's sleep. Some of
> your physical issues make me look like Bruce Jenner or Lance Armstrong (or
> to really test your age/trivial pursuit, Mark Spitz) by comparison. I just
> hate this goddamn self pity bull***, and the only thing that really helps
> is helping others. But falling flat on my face, when the real chips are
> really down, when people are dying, when it really counts and matters is
> just too damn hard, too damn rough, too impossible get used to. Going from
> being that guy who always knew how to and when to put out the fires, and now
> I'm just another obstacle to get in the way. Sometimes the only useful thing
> I have left to do is donate my body to science fiction.
> I'm fine, don't worry about me, I'm just going through one of my "blue
> periods". Not the religious guy, I hope it doesn't sound hypocritical to say
> thank god for the wife, without her I'd truly be lost, long, long, ago. But
> venting to you guys, helps more than you can know and whether we've fought
> or hugged, thanks to all for being there for me.
> This isn't a "goodbye cruel world" note or anything like that. I've walked
> that road too, and if you want to do it, you just do it, you don't cry for
> help. It's just a vent and a ...
>
> Thank you--og

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