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is there such a thing as "delayed" empty nest syndrome?

alex graduated 12 years ago and went into the army right away--but i didn't
experience "ENS" then. he came back home and lived here until about 2 years
ago--and i didn't experience "ENS" when he move out, either.

but lately, it feels like that's exactly what i've been experiencing. it's
sorta like i don't know what to do with myself, and it feels like i'm just
spinning my wheels, kinda pointlessly. well, except when my kitty got
another uti--getting jeepies taken care of was meaningful activity on my
part (though he's a big boy, 16#, and carrying him in his carrier to the
vets kinda pulled a chest muscle or two). or like maybe i've just been
killing time, for the past four years? well, not totally, cuz i have gotten
some things on my short/med/long term goals' lists done. but not as much as
i normally would have.

maybe it's a backlash kind of thing?--too much activity and the sudden stop?
it's like the sudden stop suddenly kinda makes nothing feel like its very
meaningful lately. it doesn't sound to me like i'm making any sense, not to
myself anyhow.

it's like suddenly, the world, as i know it, is teeny-tiny and kind of
devoid of reason. that's not me--normally, i'm into everything and
anything, all the time; learning new things to do (to make, repair, take
care of, donate my time to and energy to and things to create), exploring
new places and things to think about. i do have new things lined up
(household repair/remodeling stuff, gemology, argumentation, the great ideas
of philosophy and beyond einstein courses i bought and a class on how to do
stained glass), but can't seem to make myself make the time to explore/do
them. it's like i'd have to force myself to do what used to come so easily,
sooo naturally.

a girlfriend/neighbor has a tupperware party tomorrow--ordinarily, i'd go,
if just to support her. but truthfully, i'm not interested because all it
does is make me think about how i should get rid of a bunch of the plastic
storage stuff i already have. one person needs so much less. i did go to
my great-neice's first birthday party.

i don't think i'm depressed, but i do feel kind of like i've lost myself or
my sense of direction, somewhere. or like i feel like i've somehow shrunk?
am i making any sense at all? is this empty nest syndrome?--big house,
empty of people, except for me and my 3 furbabies? i'm just puzzled.

kate







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