Having one of those days

I know we all have them. I'm just glad I have you guys, and an amazing partner, to understand when it's happening. I'm having one of those days where I'm mad at this disease. It's funny, because only a week ago I was telling her how I wouldn't trade the experience because it's made me who I am.

And then today I woke up simply feeling defeated. I was just tired of being in pain, and tired of getting sick all the time, and tired of dealing with it. No, I'm not depressed, just mad. At one point I was in tears asking Tish why she'd want someone like me with all my issues when she could be with someone who could go for walks with her anytime, and who could keep up and do things she wants to do, and not be sick. She is so amazing. She just held me and let me get it all out, and told me she loves me for the same reason that the sky is blue and that birds sing and that the world keeps turning. Because that's just the way it is and none of those things will change just because I get sick sometimes or because I have a bad day.

After awhile I decided I wanted coffee so we went and got a latte, and then went to our favorite veggie stand and got fresh fruits and veggies, and then I didn't know WHAT I wanted and nothing was quite cheering me up, so we came home. She got out my exercise bike and I rode slowly for 10 minutes - enough to get me moving and break a sweat but not enough to hurt me. I made us dinner (baked boneless skinless chicken breasts and a TON of various raw veggies in balsamic vinegar) and we sat and cuddled on the couch.

I'm feeling better now, and more positive. I'm lucky to have someone who understands that when I have a down day I just need to have some TLC and patience, and that I may change my mind 10 times about what will cheer me up but that eventually it will pass.

Writing it out helps, too. I knew you guys would understand. We all have the "mad at Arthur" days. Life's just plain not fair, and that's that.

However, because I want to end on a good note, I got a promotion on Friday. I am officially an Accountant Analyst now, and on salary. I'll find out the exact dollar amount tomorrow. It should be a substantial raise though, about the equivalent of $5/hour or $10k/year. Niceness. That will help a lot. Money doesn't change things, but lack of it sure can make life harder.

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

DeeTee: You hanging in there? You allowed Pepsi yet? Anything else I can send you?

Aim
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