Re: I Figured It Out

Glad you are feeling better :)
As far as Frank I'm over that LOL that is why I kept my mouth shut. Anyhow
I was feeling to cramped and a loss of freedom and you know how us brats can
be ;) (Also it wasn't early it's been almost a year lol)
Losing a friend? Honeeeeeeeeeeeeeey, take it from a gay guy we know all
about drama and who we thought were good friends! You are not losing a good
friend you are getting freedom from emotional drama! Trust me! The day I
dropped a whole group of people was the day I started to feel better. I now
find that others I know have ditched the drama group also and now have my
outlook. Go vent on the Internet and not when you are around me because I
came out to have a good time.
Today I got another call from that old friend I just saw the other night
and boy did he fill my ears with some things. (Gossip I wanted and didn't
want to hear) One part was about that other @hole I was with 2 years and the
other was I willing to talk again from someone from my past who misses me. I
gave a message to him 1. If he apologizes from years past and 2. As long as
he comes with no drama!
I can't believe it has taken some of them so long to grownup and most are
older than me!
Carol I know nurses gossip like gay guys do so you have a choice. Treat them
like the NG and bite your tongue or hang with nurses from another hospital
or go to meetup.com and find a new circle to hang out with. Even I know
friends with baggage aren't always worth what you get back in return and
even with me when asked how am I doing I just say ok and leave it at that.
My real friends can look at me and know when I am pain and those are the
ones who will whisper in my ear I know you're hurting bad and faking it.
Beth does this all the time and Tracy can spot it along with others.

So Chins up! Oh wait I meant Chin up! (skinny $##*^$#*#) 188 pounds!
Grrrrrrrrrr

CB


Carol J wrote:
LOL Well, I expect that you are right, my friend:-) I'm sorry it
didn't work out with Frank..........but if it's right, it's right and
if it ain't......well it just ain't. Better to get out early I always
say..............thanks for the pep talk......I kinda needed it
tonight. I got some drama going on at work and I'm taking it pretty
hard. Losing a friend, or thought he was a good friend, because of
the the drama in my office............so I needed a pat on the back.
Thank you:-)

Carol j

"Cheeky ***" <InvalidEmail@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Carol, let me give you some real heartfelt advise.

When (which I still have couple) drove a hotrod guys I think like
being seen in that car more than me.
When I was all roided out and buff and stripped and owned Hard Bodies
that is all they wanted is the body! I could treat them like pure
trash as a test and they still wanted me.
When I was the local connection for drugs they all wanted me.

I do not go out often anymore and I do not think I am all that and a
bag of chips and never did but when I post my pic online or as the
other night I went out I had guys all over me right and left and it
alarmed me as I am arrogant but not that way. I know looks is one as
I have been told many times. I don't care how sexy you think I am but
I just don't feel that way and never did even when I was ripped.
Except for a slight belly I'm still very muscular.
Next comes personality, I see a hot guy who wants to talk to me and
in my mind I think he is either cheating or something's mentally
wrong so I try to chase them off with "what the F do you want?

Next comes other things, I grew hair back after all the years of
shaving it and I an bothered by the whites that are popping
through!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Next what used to be a joke with me is now real and bothers me, I am
thinning because of a med!
Next I have a 50/50 mix, the other night when I went out NOBODY could
figure out what was different about me. HELLO I grew hair back you
idiots and please stop looking at my wanker!
Next I went out and I now had more girls that I talked to chasing
after me! (Hello earth to girl, all we can do is go shopping!)
I did go online to chat but with my pic I had too many A/S/L and I
just do not deal with that well and left. Did meet one moderate guy I
chat with now but he knows to take it slow. Doesn't think he is cute
but really is but I need to pick his brain a while LOL

Next there is health, nobody wants to hear the good looking guy is a
gimp. (BTW in my quest for health treatment and not mis treatment I
was tested for 12 STD's today by a friend and as I knew I don't have
any! but did start vaccinations because my long lost love who is much
older than me wanted me to for the hell of it) I still love the guy
in my own way. more than 19 years later I am still afraid to tell him
how I really felt all these years, Him being older bothered him more
than me.

Next, I guess I should drop the bomb now and let all the assholes of
AMF know on APR 4th I sent Frank and Email saying fuckyou it's over.
I had my reasons. The only problem beside feelings I now still have
is too many guys knowing this and BOTHERING me!

So, Carl, Cindy, Ed and all the others you have been baited one more
time suckers!
The other night when I went out I had 3 guys fighting over me and
later spent time with one. (I've known all 3 for years.)

Carol, do like I do, look great and when you do you feel great it just
happens. And to all those guys who hit on you now? Do like I do get
them all horny and leave them blue balled and leave! They aint worth
having you honey!

CB






Carol J wrote:
I'm sure that's true..........I mean come it, it's
guys.............lol I can't wait for the folks at work to see me
when I get back. I mean, I was the heaviest person there for
years......at least in management. Some folks treat me differently
and some who never gave me the time of day before, go out of their
way to compliment me or talk to me............and friends I thought
that my weight would never matter to them at all, it has cost me
their friendship. I just don't know why people get so hung up on how
fat/skinny a person is............human behavior always amazes me
though.

Carol j

"Cheeky ***" <InvalidEmail@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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LOL! If it were guys they'd be crying because you have smaller boobs
now.

Go figure right?

I met a nurse today that had the opposite thoughts of me. She has no
tummy but a big *** and boobs and I have no *** and a tummy.

We both agreed I rather have more so I look equal. She also told me
she has guys chase her because of her *** and boobs and it's not
fun.

CB


Carol J wrote:
It was so funny today........I had to go into work to get my
paycheck, I stayed in the car while my son went in to get it. Here
he comes with the other ladies in my department and two others. I'm
thinking "Oh how nice, they miss me!".............so they come
around the car to my window and instead of meeting my eyes, they are
starring hard at my breasts! I said so.....did cha'll come to see
me or the girls? lol They of course came to see the girls and they
were even trying to get me to pull up my shirt so they could see!!
I was like ah no ladies...........lol They were amazed at how
small I look now, especially my friend Linda who has been talking
about doing this herself. She's really overweight though, with
that mid belly thing going on. Diagnosed with diabetes last
year:-( I told her if she'd just lay off the mexican food she'd
lose weight and she'd have smaller boobs then.......never ask a
hispanic person to give up their mexican food though, they get
ugly...........

Carol J

"Cheeky ***" <InvalidEmail@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Oh PLEASE CAROL, just think in the end you will look like Cher! (Or
Mike Jackson if the screwed up) LOL


Brat.....

CB


Carol J wrote:
Anita Baker I think did that song:-) lol

Hey, whatever get you so you feel comfortable to be here, that's
what I say:-)

How you feeling today? Sounds like you're doing better:-) I went
to the surgeon for my one week post-op.......came away
disappointed, he didn't take out any of the drains:-( But he did
take out every 3rd staple on the stomach incision line and then
removed all the steri strips from the breast incision lines. I go
back on Monday, hopefully then everything will be removed so my
body can heal better.......

carol j


Janey Pooh wrote:
"I don't care how you get here,
Just get here if you can."

I seem to recall a song with that stanza in it, but I couldn't
give a fig what it was called or anything right now. Too much
brain space wasted . . .

on AMF!!!

ROFLMAO

So . . . I can get here by posting to Google Groups, and I can
READ by going to news.readfreenews.net. Then if I want to
respond to something, like this:

Messages posted through google groups are making it out to > the
rest of the world, google just isn't showing new messages. You
can read to see
new messages, though can't post, with a news reader at,

news.readfreenews.net

Thanks a million, Alex. I forgot about that one. Good to *see*
you!! :o)

GrampaHugs,
Alex,

I can copy from readfreenews and then post it into a Google Groups
post, knowing it'll show up on Usenet but not on Google Groups.

And for the Google-based Group, Fibromyalgia Tenderness, I can
post there and it'll show up to people who get their posts by
e-mail, cuz I changed my preferences to include getting posts in
my In-Box for now. Anyone can post stuff, but the only people who
can read them are those who change their group settings to
include mail in their In-Boxes.

<GGG> I must *really* wanna be with y'all, eh? LOL It's much
more entertaining than playing Scrabble and Spider all day, or
entering contests - or doing dishes, or washing the bathtub, or .
. .

I got . . .
Too much time on my hands,
Too much time on my hands . . .

And/Or an addiction to talking to my friends and a *serious* need
to fix things whenever there's a problem. I am not content, it
seems, to let a few days go by until someone else gets it all
figured out properly. This is a general personality trait of
mine, I think. If someone took my toaster apart and left it lying
on the counter, I would HAVE to figure out a way to put it back
together - even if I didn't want toast. LOL

Take GOOD Care,

Jane


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