Re: I done and did it!!!!
- From: "dingalingdeb" <ding@xxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Fri, 09 Jun 2006 20:07:29 GMT
Yes, a journal is good for sure. However, since you've just stopped working
and are going to be home full-time, why not start out the way you (need to
and) mean to carry on? People treat us the way we teach them to and/or let
them treat us. IMHO the less we care about ourselves and the more guilt and
'unworthiness' we feel, the crappier we allow people to treat us; I hope
you can work on letting them know that you are no longer going to take all
their crap, you don't deserve that and you need their help and support. Let
them know that you just 'ain't gonna take it anymore' - I know that sounds
glib, but trust me, it's not meant that way and a lot of us have a pretty
good idea what it's like. It's hard enough to get though the day, just
dealing with the pain! I really hope that you can make some changes in your
home life - I tell you, it would make a world of difference. If it's really
difficult at first (of course it will be) to feel that self-esteem that you
need, just tell yourself that 'you' are the parent and due to that fact
alone, you deserve and are entitled to and should be treated with respect.
Stay strong - you have lots of support here. Feel free to unload here
Eagles may soar, but weasels aren't sucked into jet engines.
Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.
<timetoscrap@xxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
I'm taking baby steps. I keep thinking of emailing Jeff (the guy I
worked with) and asking if he's backed up and needs help. But I
haven't! : )
Then there's all the crap at home...husband, kids, etc. I've been
burying my head on because I just can't deal anymore and they know it.
Instead of understand, they play off it. Oh such tails I could tell
right now. Maybe thats what I need. A unload of whats gone on and going
on. Time to buy a journal or something.
Thank you for such caring words.
Jaye; I know it was a very difficult thing for you to do and I hope that
rather than be upset and go over your decision over and over in your
just know that you've done the right thing for YOU and there's nothing
you could have done. Give yourself permission to start taking care of you
and just let it all go. I'm really happy to hear that you've 'gone and
Something you don't want to hear during surgery: "Ya know....there's big
money in kidneys...and this guy's got two of 'em".
<timetoscrap@xxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
I was waiting until after 11 am Monday to make the official
announcement. By 11 am Monday I would have been on my way to
work....BUT, I didn't go today because.....
It's official. I know, I know, I gave my notice something like 6 weeks
ago. Even gave my final notice 2 weeks ago, but then told the boss I'd
try one more time. Well, last Wednesday I had my final melt down after
work. Went in Thursday (on my day off) and said I would finish the week
and that was it. Drove 50 minutes one way to do it, but was well worth
it. It didn't give me any time to think that maybe I could do it or
not, I just did it. I told the boss it was my final, final, final
The hardest part was Friday. The boss said I didn't have to work Friday
but I did so I could say good bye to some really great people I worked
with. It helped that I had only 3 hours sleep the night before and hurt
like hell all day Friday so I didn't get that last minute "oh, maybe I
can hang on a few more weeks" crap that I've been gonig through. About
an hour before the end of my shift I started getting really anxious
about leaving and realized I needed to pull my stuff together, turn in
my tool box and badge and get the hell out of dodge. I did end up
staying for awhle to say some good byes and so glad I did. I couldn't
believe how many people told me they were sad I was leaving and was
praying that I would get some relief from my pain and fatique. Even my
boss kept repeating how much he appreciated me staying as long as I did
and wished the best for my health. Yes, I cried like a baby. LOL!
So many even said, knowing me like they do, they expected to see me
Monday. Thats why I waited to make my announcement. I got up this
morning and really wanted to go to work, but didn't. : ) I felt like I
belonged there. I loved my job and what I did. It made it very
difficult to leave, but I know its for the best. I'm in so much pain,
mentally and physically exhausted. Now I hope for once to focus on me
and do whatever I can to feel as good as possible with this terrible
Thank you all for letting me ramble here from time to time. Now that
I'll have more time on my hands and hopefully be a bit more rested I'll
be able to make meaningful, helpful posts.
Jaye : )
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