Re: Stinkin tired

What goes around come around CB. All you have to do is lay back and wait
because some day, something will happen in an attempt to open his eyes. The
question is, will he ever see it? He sounds incredibly too self-centered.
Be thankful he's out of your life. Now you can concentrate on making
yourself feel better. Maybe all the stress from him has made you feel
worse. Did you ever think of that? That came to my mind even before the
break up. Think about it.... you gave a lot and he did not seem to
appreciate it. Take care.

Hugs,

Nettie

"CHEEKY ***" <NotARealEmailAddy@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Mercy wrote:
I dealt with it all until the cancer and chemo. I had days where I
felt pretty darned good and wasn't this tired and weak. I knew how
to pace myself. Now there is very little room to even pace myself. I
went out this afternoon. I was feeling a bit better so I went and
had my nails done and did some grocery shopping. It felt good to be
out but I was stinkin tired when I got home. Ed had to get the bags
out of the car and put stuff away. But he never minds ... he's so
sweet. Perhaps with this break in my chemo, I will gain back some
energy. I hope I do not have to do another round and I can go right
onto maintenance. It all depends how much this chemo has dissolved
this mass. Now it is back to the waiting game ... urgh!!!

Wish I was there, all I can say is helping someone worse off than me makes
me feel better mentally.


Hope you are doing a little better at your mom's.

Yeah I may rent a house with an inlaw setup and I'll live in the inlaw
setup and let my mother a brother have the house (except the garages and
basement)

Sorry but I think
your fella is cop out jerk. What if he were sick? Would he expect
you to leave? You care(d) so much about him and poof.... gone!! It
makes me angry at him. Take care ok?

I will try Nettie, and yes with or without him I have wished this sickness
on him ten fold and hopes he see's living with me wasn't total hell and it
can get worse. I have a list I wish on him and I hope it ruins his dreams
and life the way it has others.
I also hope to see the day he needs the SS system he has paid into only 5
years and "could care less about"

Nettie

But unlike him I'd still be with his sick and poor SS ass just to watch
and offer the same support.

And who ever help him I get my wish he should come running to an FMS
suport group because then the flames will sore to no end.
I hope FMS is catchy and he get's it from me :) He's going to get diabetes
from his dad and RA from his mom and maybe FMS from his mom and hopefully
me. And his Nan is lossing her mind so lets not add that as thats too kind
to have.

Maybe you guys are right, it wasn't meant to be and was just to help me. I
wanted to give back but it wasn't soon enough for him. I was supposed to
undo 18 years of damage in less than a year and gain half a life back
according to him.

The day he gets mad and post here I think he knows no matter what he post
he will get no suport because all the things he has to complain about we
have all or are going through.

Anyone know any hotties with FMS <evil grin> Males only please.

CB :)

"CHEEKY ***" <NotARealEmailAddy@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Nettie, (I hope others here read this and understand it)
I think what makes me mad and you angry is when we are younger and
sicker than our older parents.
It just aint right and should not be like this.

Pat Caprio a dear friend also kills herself to drive and take care
of her parents and hides how sick she is also and then returns home
drained. I get bitter because this is not fair at all.

Take away my CFS and FMS and your cancer and I could accept the rest
of the things as part of getting older.
For me (and probably you) it wasn't like this all hit me yesterday,
it's been going on and getting worse for years and I didn't know how
bad because I had it covered with booze.

It just seems that at every corner there is another blow and even the
little things bother us that normally would not if it wasn't on top
of how we feel.

Hugs,

CB

"Mercy" <someone@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Hi Lori. Thanks for saying that but I don't feel I do much;
especially lately. When Ed got home yesterday, I felt a little
better plus my best friend called me and we talked through some of
the stuff. It seems every now and then I get really down and get
into a funk. It is as if everything catches up with me. I am
worried again about my mom and dad but I guess at 88 years old,
that is a given. Their health is failing and one of these days
they will be gone. If its not mom, then its dad. Mom improved and
now dad's heart is in trouble. I know they have had a long happy
and productive life. But I keep getting reminded that the
inevitable is just around the corner. Life will never be the same
without them. God keeps granting me more time with them and I am
so thankful. Most people don't have their parents this long. They
are such good folks. Anyway, I know you and everybody else has lots on
their plate too. I just hope this first regime of chemo works and the
cancer mass is
gone. I just cannot imagine how awful some people have it when they
go through the big time chemo. The dr. said that some day I will
end up having to do that because 100% of his with my kind of
lymphoma do. All of this is taking its toll on Ed too. He's been
so good in taking care of me. Right now he's not getting much in
return. He says he just happy that I am still around. But, I want
to be able to be the partner he married and want us to share some
good times together again.... they are few and far between lately. The
problem is when we get sick, it affects everybody around us. My
little grandson was over on Sunday. When he saw me, his eyes lite
up and he said, "Grandma, are you better"? I said, "yes Tyler, I
am better." He turned to his mom and dad and elated and said,
"grandma is better." We had so much fun for the hour or so that
they were here. He just couldn't get enough of my attention. Then
we (both little guys and me) curled up in a blanket on the floor
for a few minutes and they loved it. Anyway, I hope I am around to
watch them grow up and can go to the graduations and weddings etc.
Besides Ed, they are the love of my life. But now my stepdaughter
is also having a baby due around Thanksgiving. Another wonderful
blessing. She and her husband just bought a house and are moving
in next month. There are wonderful things going on around me and I
feel like this slug who cannot participate very much. Anyway,
that's me today. Things will get better, I know. This too shall
pass. Now that I have written a book here, I will say, another
huge thanks to those who are helping me through all this crap.
Again, you have no idea how much I appreciate being able to come
here and pour my heart out and not be judged. I guess when we are
sick, and feeling physically rotten, we cannot easily see the good
around us.... my bad. Love and Hugs,

Nettie

"LoriB.o.B." <banjobabe@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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(((((((((((((((((Nettie))))))))))))))))))).
Wish I could give you what you need, all I have is to send you a
cyber hug after "listening".
Sweet baby, you do soooooo much for others all the time...I think
god is tellin' you to give or take some of that back right now.
Sometimes that's harder to do.
JMO & Hugz,
Kindly,
LoriB.o.B.
ps-the "god" stuff just slipped out after reading about your
pastor, who let you down for certain.




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