Re: Stinkin tired

I dealt with it all until the cancer and chemo. I had days where I felt
pretty darned good and wasn't this tired and weak. I knew how to pace
myself. Now there is very little room to even pace myself. I went out this
afternoon. I was feeling a bit better so I went and had my nails done and
did some grocery shopping. It felt good to be out but I was stinkin tired
when I got home. Ed had to get the bags out of the car and put stuff away.
But he never minds ... he's so sweet. Perhaps with this break in my chemo,
I will gain back some energy. I hope I do not have to do another round and
I can go right onto maintenance. It all depends how much this chemo has
dissolved this mass. Now it is back to the waiting game ... urgh!!!

Hope you are doing a little better at your mom's. Sorry but I think your
fella is cop out jerk. What if he were sick? Would he expect you to leave?
You care(d) so much about him and poof.... gone!! It makes me angry at him.
Take care ok?

Nettie

"CHEEKY ***" <NotARealEmailAddy@xxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Nettie, (I hope others here read this and understand it)
I think what makes me mad and you angry is when we are younger and sicker
than our older parents.
It just aint right and should not be like this.

Pat Caprio a dear friend also kills herself to drive and take care of her
parents and hides how sick she is also and then returns home drained.

I get bitter because this is not fair at all.

Take away my CFS and FMS and your cancer and I could accept the rest of
the things as part of getting older.
For me (and probably you) it wasn't like this all hit me yesterday, it's
been going on and getting worse for years and I didn't know how bad
because I had it covered with booze.

It just seems that at every corner there is another blow and even the
little things bother us that normally would not if it wasn't on top of how
we feel.

Hugs,

CB

"Mercy" <someone@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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Hi Lori. Thanks for saying that but I don't feel I do much; especially
lately. When Ed got home yesterday, I felt a little better plus my best
friend called me and we talked through some of the stuff. It seems every
now and then I get really down and get into a funk. It is as if
everything catches up with me. I am worried again about my mom and dad
but I guess at 88 years old, that is a given. Their health is failing
and one of these days they will be gone. If its not mom, then its dad.
Mom improved and now dad's heart is in trouble. I know they have had a
long happy and productive life. But I keep getting reminded that the
inevitable is just around the corner. Life will never be the same
without them. God keeps granting me more time with them and I am so
thankful. Most people don't have their parents this long. They are such
good folks.

Anyway, I know you and everybody else has lots on their plate too. I
just hope this first regime of chemo works and the cancer mass is gone.
I just cannot imagine how awful some people have it when they go through
the big time chemo. The dr. said that some day I will end up having to
do that because 100% of his with my kind of lymphoma do. All of this is
taking its toll on Ed too. He's been so good in taking care of me.
Right now he's not getting much in return. He says he just happy that I
am still around. But, I want to be able to be the partner he married and
want us to share some good times together again.... they are few and far
between lately. The problem is when we get sick, it affects everybody
around us. My little grandson was over on Sunday. When he saw me, his
eyes lite up and he said, "Grandma, are you better"? I said, "yes Tyler,
I am better." He turned to his mom and dad and elated and said, "grandma
is better." We had so much fun for the hour or so that they were here.
He just couldn't get enough of my attention. Then we (both little guys
and me) curled up in a blanket on the floor for a few minutes and they
loved it. Anyway, I hope I am around to watch them grow up and can go to
the graduations and weddings etc. Besides Ed, they are the love of my
life. But now my stepdaughter is also having a baby due around
Thanksgiving. Another wonderful blessing. She and her husband just
bought a house and are moving in next month. There are wonderful things
going on around me and I feel like this slug who cannot participate very
much. Anyway, that's me today. Things will get better, I know. This
too shall pass. Now that I have written a book here, I will say, another
huge thanks to those who are helping me through all this crap. Again, you
have no idea how much I appreciate being able to come here and pour my
heart out and not be judged. I guess when we are sick, and feeling
physically rotten, we cannot easily see the good around us.... my bad.

Love and Hugs,

Nettie

"LoriB.o.B." <banjobabe@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
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(((((((((((((((((Nettie))))))))))))))))))).
Wish I could give you what you need, all I have is to send you a cyber
hug after "listening".
Sweet baby, you do soooooo much for others all the time...I think god
is tellin' you to give or take some of that back right now. Sometimes
that's harder to do.
JMO & Hugz,
Kindly,
LoriB.o.B.
ps-the "god" stuff just slipped out after reading about your pastor,
who let you down for certain.







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