Re: Stinkin tired

Hi Lori. Thanks for saying that but I don't feel I do much; especially
lately. When Ed got home yesterday, I felt a little better plus my best
friend called me and we talked through some of the stuff. It seems every
now and then I get really down and get into a funk. It is as if everything
catches up with me. I am worried again about my mom and dad but I guess at
88 years old, that is a given. Their health is failing and one of these
days they will be gone. If its not mom, then its dad. Mom improved and now
dad's heart is in trouble. I know they have had a long happy and productive
life. But I keep getting reminded that the inevitable is just around the
corner. Life will never be the same without them. God keeps granting me
more time with them and I am so thankful. Most people don't have their
parents this long. They are such good folks.

Anyway, I know you and everybody else has lots on their plate too. I just
hope this first regime of chemo works and the cancer mass is gone. I just
cannot imagine how awful some people have it when they go through the big
time chemo. The dr. said that some day I will end up having to do that
because 100% of his with my kind of lymphoma do. All of this is taking its
toll on Ed too. He's been so good in taking care of me. Right now he's not
getting much in return. He says he just happy that I am still around. But,
I want to be able to be the partner he married and want us to share some
good times together again.... they are few and far between lately. The
problem is when we get sick, it affects everybody around us. My little
grandson was over on Sunday. When he saw me, his eyes lite up and he said,
"Grandma, are you better"? I said, "yes Tyler, I am better." He turned to
his mom and dad and elated and said, "grandma is better." We had so much
fun for the hour or so that they were here. He just couldn't get enough of
my attention. Then we (both little guys and me) curled up in a blanket on
the floor for a few minutes and they loved it. Anyway, I hope I am around
to watch them grow up and can go to the graduations and weddings etc.
Besides Ed, they are the love of my life. But now my stepdaughter is also
having a baby due around Thanksgiving. Another wonderful blessing. She and
her husband just bought a house and are moving in next month. There are
wonderful things going on around me and I feel like this slug who cannot
participate very much. Anyway, that's me today. Things will get better, I
know. This too shall pass. Now that I have written a book here, I will
say, another huge thanks to those who are helping me through all this crap.
Again, you have no idea how much I appreciate being able to come here and
pour my heart out and not be judged. I guess when we are sick, and feeling
physically rotten, we cannot easily see the good around us.... my bad.

Love and Hugs,

Nettie

"LoriB.o.B." <banjobabe@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
news:1144722755.943010.68450@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
(((((((((((((((((Nettie))))))))))))))))))).
Wish I could give you what you need, all I have is to send you a cyber
hug after "listening".
Sweet baby, you do soooooo much for others all the time...I think god
is tellin' you to give or take some of that back right now. Sometimes
that's harder to do.
JMO & Hugz,
Kindly,
LoriB.o.B.
ps-the "god" stuff just slipped out after reading about your pastor,
who let you down for certain.



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