Re: Kind of OT

Hi there,

No, unfortunately, she didn't make it. God rest her... She died with her
three year old daughter beside her... That poor, poor child...

Yes, I am definitely familiar with PTSD. Dealt with that demon for years.

I was threatened by a twenty seven year old male caregiver when I was in one
state institution. He used to make us do certain things that I will not
speak about in a public forum while we were at gunpoint... He was
eventually apprehended. He was the only one of my childhood abusers who
was. I enjoyed testifying at his trial. May he rot in prison!

I keep thinking about this whole thing and one thought keeps surfacing again
and again... One minute I'm joking with this lady, laughing and talking
with her and the next, she's dead. It doesn't seem real somehow and yet...

--
Yanosz Descouedresz


"Cindy in Pa" <cnospamleigh1@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
news:yaCdnfozp5tBrEPenZ2dnUVZ_vydnZ2d@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
> What a ordeal...lucky you have Dewey...he possibly kept you from getting
> hurt...
>
> That was a very traumatic situation...you may be dealing with the effects
of
> post traumatic...especially if you already have it from your previous
> abuse...
>
> you were threatened with guns by the state??
>
> you didn't say...did your neighbor make it?
>
> Cindy in Pa
>
>
> "Yanosz Descouedresz" <yanosz@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote in message
> news:RRoDf.21$M_7.11@xxxxxxxxxxx
> > Hi all,
> >
> > This is kind of on topic but not really... I'm just writing it
because,
> > well, frankly,because I need to internalize it all.
> >
> > Friday night, just before midnight, I took Dewey outside to potty. We
> went
> > out the front, not out the back where the dog yard is. The neighbor
from
> > next door was out and we talked for a few minutes... I walked Dewey and
> > when I was coming back, a man drove up and began yelling at my neighbor.
> >
> > The arguing got pretty intense and as we had to pass her driveway to go
> > home, Dewey wouldn't let me. He kept growling and pushing me back...
> When
> > I got rather insistent, he nipped my leg...
> >
> > A little argument turned into a blazing row, and, before I knew what was
> > happening, the man, (Her boyfriend, I found out later), pulled a gun and
> > shot her five times.
> >
> > I was unfortunately close enough to see this clearly. I spent the
> remainder
> > of Friday night/Saturday morning really, with the police...
> >
> > Now when I walk Dewey, I must walk a different direction since he *will
> not*
> > go passed her house...
> >
> > I just don't understand mindless violence. I really don't... What
> happened
> > there sickened me and has made me think about my own past.
> >
> > For those who don't know, I was abandoned by my family as an infant and
> grew
> > up as a ward of the state. I was abused, in every way you can imagine,
> from
> > infanthood to my eighteenth birthday when I was no longer in state
> custody.
> > Sometimes, they would threaten me with guns...
> >
> > Seeing this shooting has made my pain level skyrocket. My meds are not
> > helping. I'm jumpy, can't sleep, can't eat, feel sick...
> >
> > Sorry for rambling.
> >
> > Yanosz Descouedresz
> >
> >
>
>


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