what the hell happened to my rainbow?

i remember standing in a vast field holding hands in a circle with i
don't know how many thousands of people, feeling in my heart that we
were all brothers and sisters, children of the sun, tears of wonder
streaming down my cheeks. i remember how quiet it was, how beautiful
and peaceful there. i remember the sound of the wind in the trees, the
birdsongs, the occasional barking dog, and our silence, a potent,
unified, resounding human silence in which the thousands of us prayed,
aspired, hoped and dreamed as one of peace on earth. i remember the
children coming in to the circle, faces painted and aglow with love,
the musical revels afterward, the drums rocking us to sleep at night,
the campfires' glow, the fun and comeraderie of the kitchens, the
dedication of the seed campers, the supply runners, the shitter
diggers and the clean-up crews. i remember the hugs and the love...

it seems like everytime i post anything out here of late someone who i
really don't know or have any opinion of myself, will see fit to make
a point of dissing me, trying in a jokey but unmistakeably hostile way
to hurt my feelings or make fun of what i say. even the people i
thought i knew , or used to know, seem to come here only to repost
news articles and/or put one anothers' opinions down... what the heck
is going on?

i recoil back into the safety of my familiar surroundings, rely on a
significantly smaller circle of friends and family, and wonder if back
there in rainbowland i wasn't just hallucinating the whole peace and
love thing...
.

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    (alt.gathering.rainbow)
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